Just Breathe - Adopted by Mandy Gonzalez - COMPLETED

11 - Negativity

After watching the documentary I went and did some light makeup for the day. Mandy and I headed to the theatre after lunch. The two of us, Lexi and Joanna had a little photo shoot for promos of the Fearless Squad tops. We took some really cute photos, I took some with Mandy that I was so happy with. The sisters took a group photo that was Christmasy. We then each had individual shots taken for them to use on the website when they sold them. At the end we all went up to Mandy's dressing gathered around the laptop on her couch, and each chose our favourites.

"Mandy. Can I save some of these and print them off for my room. I want to use this one of us together for my lock screen."

"Of course baby. I'm doing to download them all to my phone then I'll send you your ones this afternoon."

"Thanks Mandy."

"You know I'd do anything for you, right Becky?"

"Of course I do. Because you're my mom. And you're the best mom ever. And I love you to the moon and back." I kiss her cheek in a daughterly manner and cuddle up to her as she slides through the photos.

"You're so sweet Becky. Mandy you have the perfect daughters." Lexi said smiling from the far side of the couch.

"I really do. Two very talented daughters that I love with my whole heart. No matter that ones biological and ones adopted they are still both my princesses and neither one is above the other. I love you princess." She wrapped and arm around me and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too." I rested my head on her shoulder. Mandy kept scrolling through the photos until we got to the individual ones.

"Honey. What do you think of this one? Can I use this for the promo today and also for announcing your my daughter?"

"Of course, it's perfect. I'm going to set that as my profile pic or the one of the two of us. Not sure which yet."

"Okay I'll do that now."

(Picture of Becky in #FearlessSquad top)

'I'm pleased to announce that we will shortly be releasing #FearlessSquad T-Shirts. Designed and modelled here by my gorgeous daughter @/becky_hamfam. I love you baby girl, and Happy 17th Birthday Princess, I'm so proud of you.'

"Thanks for the post Mandy." I liked and Retweeted it, then made my own tweet, using the picture of Mandy and I that she just sent me.

(Picture of Mandy and Becky in #FearlessSquad T-shirts)
'So honoured to have been able to work on this project with my mom @/_mandygonzalez. Proud to call her my mom, she's the absolute best and you are all in for a treat over the next few months.'

Mandy liked and retweeted it along with Joanna and Lexi who both then followed me.

@/mandygonzalez replied to you: 'I love you princess, I'm honoured to have worked with a talented artist like you on this design. I'm proud to call you my daughter, and I know I say that everyday, but I am.'

Comments started rolling in.

@/Ryeli_2017: OMG Becky message me now!! You have to tell me what's going on. Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! I know I said that earlier, but hey!

@/TheWaffleAliebn: Wait Becky, 1- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS! 2- is there something you've been hiding from your sisters? Talk to us gal!

I giggled at these first two, my two best friends on Twitter. I message them saying I'll talk later.

@/BwayGabby: I love the design Becky, you deserve to have designed this for our Squadmom, you mean so much to her, as do all of us. So lucky your design from the summer was chosen. Happy birthday honey.

She clearly misunderstood the term daughter wasn't as her actual daughter.

@/cordy1234: What's going on here! Why are Mandy and this Becky kid calling one another mom and daughter. Becky is just an overly obsessed fan, and that's not right of her to manipulate Mandy!

@/ella_xoxo: @/becky_hamfam STOP CALLING THE SQUAD MOM YOUR MOM! SHES NOT YOUR MOM! BE A REGULAR FAN NOT A FREAK.

@/SophieD: If Mandy has adopted Becky, that's just fucking wrong! Who adopts a fan!?!? But it's probably all bullshit, she's always doing those stupid videos for her, she's just attention seeking.

@/catgirl: I thought Mandy loved all her fans equally, what's going on here! We all know Becky's a massive fan but something here isn't right. Please explain.

I began tearing up as I scrolled through what seemed like thousands of comments on both mine and Mandy's accounts. More than half of which were negative. I looked around the room tears in my eyes, I saw Mandy also had a sad look and one of anger. I stood up from Mandy's arm and ran out her room and into the main lobby area.

"Becky, what are you doing here? You aren't allowed back here as an audience member. How'd you get in." I heard from Javier.

"Just talk to Mandy. She'll explain." I half yelled, half cried. I kept running until I found myself in the grand circle of the theatre. I went right to the back corner and curled up in a ball crying. I wasn't fearless enough for the world to know. Why did I bother trying? I should have kept it hidden.