The Managers 'Son' (BTS x Trans Reader) FTM

Hate

*Rhys Prov.*

I turn on the camera and people start to join. I just sit there drinking my pop.

I was doing fine till I say a comment.

'Still Alive huh? Why don't you just go kill yourself. The others, Kao, and even Chul would be better off without you.'

I read it and I'm a little scared. How would anyone know about Chul?

I didn't upload the video yet. But then again I'm not shocked that they told me to kill myself.

"Trust me, it's not like I wanted to live." I say.

Remember when I say I'm suicidal? Yeah, I wasn't joking.

Before I became a trainee I actually tried killing myself twice. Failed both times.

After that I tried to get better. And it worked. Well, not for me.

I just faked a smile and told people I was great, instead of telling them I'm ok.

And they believed it.

Ever since then I just faked a smile, or it was a genuine smile. I still have depression and I still cut.

But I always do it in secret, or when I'm alone. That way no one knows.

"Maybe they are just better without me." I say.

I turn back to the live and see that many people are agreeing, and disagreeing.

I guess..... All it took ...

Was for one person to speak up ....