Dear Boo

🧚 Express Yourself 🧚

Dear Boo,

This is weird. Whether it's with my mom, best friends, the stories I write or my own thoughts, I always express my feelings. I have this feeling I'm not expressing myself well enough, even as I write this.

I'm sorry for the shitty jokes, it's my only way of coping. I guess I will start with the basics.

1 – You know how there's tricks or whatever you can do to get high? I'm eyeing those things up right now, they're looking cute.

2 – I might have a crush on a straight girl, Amber*. I don't know if it's a crush or my first real friendship with a cool kid.  Either way, I'm so grateful for her. But not knowing my own feelings makes me want to choke on my own tears.

3 – Whenever something good happens, something shitty cones along.

Sorry this is all over the place, I feel weird.

🖤 – Lucy*

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Dear Lucy*,

Hey darling, thanks for writing in to me. You're definitely not weird at all, your human with feelings like the rest of us. Now, on to your issues. I will number them accordingly so it's better to understand.

I've read your works before, as well as posts on your mb and times we have talked via pm. You express everything wonderfully. If you would like to get more of yourself out there try starting a journal on here, just to get your feelings out.

1 – Okay, first off.. stop! Getting high is not the answer. Trust me, I've been there. Some people know this, others don't, but I'm not ashamed of anything. I'm a recovering addict. I use to chase any high I could. I begin with taking pills, then moved to snorting them. Before I knew it I was smoking crack and shooting up. Yes, I use to be a junkie.

While the high was great, everything else was not. The people I let down, the lies I told, not to mention the damage I did to my own body, was definitely not worth it.

People get high for a reason. Search for that reason down deep. Something personal is making you want to escape reality and catch a buzz.

Perfect example of this reality is a book written by a very dear friend of mine. I highly suggest you read it. It tells the reality of just wanting to get high to where it goes in your life. It is called Reaper's Lullaby by VeilofPetals

Actually anyone reading this, go read that book. It is my favorite novel on here. You will cry, you will be shocked. It's real life.

2 – Ultimately, it comes down to one question -- do you want to date her, or just hang out? Dating involves commitment, physical intimacy, and privacy. If this sounds daunting or undesirable, it is just a friend crush.

A friend crush is when you look up to someone. You value everything about her. Amber* probably is beautiful, so that plays a part in your mind. When someone treats us with love and respect it is natural to think about them on a different level.

Think about dating Amber*, or kissing her. Does that appeal to you? If something happens Ed you were to lose her would you miss that friendship? Plus, she's straight, that is definitely an issue. Or..she may not be straight as you think. If she is strictly attracted to only guys and would never date a girl, then stay friends. I wouldn't want you to end up getting hurt.

Normally I post pics with each letter, but with these topics there weren't any I could really post.

Keep being your wonderful self. I'm not sure if you realize it, but you're a great friend and anyone is lucky to have you in their life. Keep writing and expressing your thoughts and words. Think about writing a journal like I suggested. I would definitely read it.

💖xoxo💖
     Boo

*Names have been changed to protect identity.

-Video attached is "Cool Kids". When I read your letter this song came to mind haha

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