Dear Boo is an advice journal for anyone who needs someone to talk to. I listen and give my advice about any topic possible. So, things such as rape, eating disorders, psychological disorders, self-harm, suicide attempts, abuse, and much more, will...
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Dear Boo,
Hi, I'm Theo*, just to let you know English isn't my first language. I am feeling really bad, suicidal actually. I want to kill myself. I see no point in living. I was abused (emotionally, sexually, and physically). I am tired. I self-harm. I'm a bad person, I'm just done. I'm not okay with just existing anymore. I'm so ashamed of myself. I am *fudged* up. Why? Why do I feel like this at 4 am when everyone is sleeping as I should cut myself? That I should be punished?
I'm tired of everything. I am disgusted with myself – my private parts and abdomen in particular. My Mom said a lot of mean things about these areas, so I grew to hate them. I feel disgusting like no man will want me. I feel bad that I feel like trash.
My Dad does not understand, but that's my fault, too. I can't tell him, “Hey Dad, your little girl was abused!”. It will crush him and I had a fight with him, so it's not the right time.
As for my Mom, well… I don't really consider her my Mom. It's like I'm this horrible thing in her life. So many things started with what she said to me.
Who would tell their child that their private parts look weird, that their abdomen is fat, and that they're worthless?
I feel like nobody will love me, and I would not love anyone. But, I also have hope. I hate how most people choose to be. Why are they so cruel (at least people from my country are) and why do I still care?
I want to die, but I also don't. I am isolating myself. I am slowly killing myself with dark thoughts and bad nutrition. People say I'm sick (which I am), but they're still not willing to understand.
I have so many things to say, but I feel like this is enough, at least for now. Boo, you seem nice and I wanted your advice. I hope I didn't bother you and hope you have a nice day.
With Love, Theo*
💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
Dear Theo*,
Hey sweet girl, thanks for writing to me about these intense overwhelming emotions. To begin with, I want you to know you're not alone anymore. Myself and everyone who will comment on your letter care about you. We don't want you to die.
Why do you think you're a bad person? Who told you this? It's understandable to be tired after being sexually, mentally, and physically abused. I can't imagine that kind of torture. Always remember it wasn't your fault! Say it with me – it wasn't my fault–! Again. Once more! Now, take a deep breath, in your nose and out of your mouth.
I think you feel disgusted because of the mental abuse your Mom has been putting you through. She is saying very hurtful things, which are not true. These are the thoughts of your Mom and no one else. What she says is not true! She has belittled you so badly that you think no man will ever want you. That's terrible!
