Its completely gone.
The sparks, the amusement, the tingly feelings whenever her boyfriend touched her, or kissed her the way she used to like so much, the way she used to feel good, they way she would be turned on whenever her boyfriend did it before. Its gone. She didn't even feel excited anymore whenever her boyfriend had time for her, it even started to feel like it's a burden for her because she'd prefer to spend her time, without him.
Was it because she got used on not to be her boyfriend first priority, after his career and her friends? Was it because they were in their relationship too long? The constancy got the best of her, she got plainly bored as an accumulation of them, rarely spent time together like they used to on their early years of relationship.
Or was it because his presence? Either reasons, none of them made her felt okay whenever she refused her boyfriend request to spend time at his place, just the two of them, but she just couldn't forced herself.
"I'm sorry, I'm just really tired from work today" she said, using her job as an excuse, although its not entirely a lie remembering the final exams would be just around the corner "You should get some rest too"
"But I miss you babe" her boyfriend said, suggestively stroking her thighs through her black pencil skirt. Its used to make her said okay in no time, but now, she didn't feel it at all, this is so frustrating, she sighed mentally groaned to herself.
"I'm sorry, but maybe next time? I'm really tired today and you have to get yourself some rest too right?" she moved her boyfriend hand and preparing to get out of his car
"I had a great time tonight by the way" she said sincerely this time. Her boyfriend treat her delicious meal and they went to see a movie she's been wanting to watch, so of course it's a great date, although she knows he'd beg to differ because of the lack of intimacy they shared on their last dates including tonight, so she left a little peck on his cheek as an apologize before stepping out of her boyfriend car.
"Drive safely" she said as she waved her boyfriend goodbye before he drove away. Absolutely not aware that she's being watched by a pair of eyes from inside a car that just pulled over into a house car port not long before she arrived with her boyfriend.
She went in to her house noticing that her sister hasn't came home yet, its Friday night after all, she might be in a club with her friends as usual, she said to herself. She went to her room then took out her phone from inside her bag, slightly hoping that she'd receive a text she hasn't been having for almost a week already. But among all text she got, none of it came from him. Slightly annoyed with herself on why did it got her so worked up while she already knew that what they had was nothing but caught in a moment fun, and that he probably got new muse now, so he'd naturally left her behind.
Boys will forever be boys, she whispered bitterly to herself, realizing how it made her felt something stirred in her, pain?
She shook her head, sighed and walked to take some clean clothes before she went to the bathroom hoping to have a good rest after she took a nice warm bath. It was nice and she felt glad with it, but somehow, all her tiredness seems to be washed away as well so she decided to go downstairs to make herself a glass of milk, then planning to spend the night away under her bed covers, while watching some reruns on tv until she'd finally fall asleep.
His mind went back to when he saw her land her kiss on her boyfriend cheek, and he's not sure if he's really okay with it, but what else can he do? She did start it with her outburst, but it was him who decided to made distance between them. He stopped texting her, which means they stopped meeting each other behind everyone's back. He avoided her which he glad that she did the same, thinking that it would make it easier for them to go back to their previous relation before they started their mini adventure. But he couldn't deny that there's something flickered in him whenever he saw her got picked up from work by her boyfriend, or when he saw him got dropped home after, possibly a date, with her boyfriend, boyfriend, he whispered to himself, annoyed, jealousy?
