Selena Gomez Imagines (gxg) - COMPLETED

you have an eating disorder (requested)

You looked down at the plate of food in front of you. You pushed it around with your fork, cringing at the sound of the scrape against the glass you'd hear here and there. Selena sat across from you and even though she was eating her food, you also knew she was watching you closely.

You tried to eat. You put a few bites of food into your mouth before you stopped. All you could think about was the comments left on your Instagram recently, the ones that have made you count every calory of everything you've eaten.

With an awkward clear of your throat, you put your fork back down on your plate, catching your girlfriend's attention. "I'll be right back. I just really need to use the bathroom." You smiled fakely but tried to make it seem as genuine as possible. You walked up the first few steps but as soon as you were out of Selena's sight you ran up the rest of them and into the bathroom.

You closed and locked the door before kneeling in front of the toilet and making yourself sick. Your fingers shook as you rid your body of the food you had eaten. You felt slightly relieved, your mind calming down just a tad... until, a knock on the door caught your attention.

"Y/n? Are you okay?" Selena asked. It was clear she'd heard you throw up.

You cursed under your breath before standing on your shaky legs. You splashed some cold water on your face and dried it off quickly before opening the door. Selena stood there, obviously concerned.

"Do you feel sick? Because I think that food might've been bad-"

"Don't."

Your heart beat a little faster at the stern tone of her voice.

"I know what you're doing, y/n. I know you're purging."

You lowered your head. You would try to lie your way out of it if this were anyone else. But it was Selena. She's not just your girlfriend, she's your best friend, too. You couldn't lie to her anymore about this secret you've been keeping for far too long.

"I'm sorry." You mumbled as she stepped closer to you. "Why would you do this?" Your bottom lip started to tremble as she took your hand. You looked so small and so... fragile, so delicate. "People kept saying things..."

Selena sighed and cupped your cheek. "I know it's hard. It isn't easy with people judging you constantly and shoving cameras into your face and putting you under a microscope so they can see your every move... right?"

You nodded.

"But y/n, if it was getting to be too much for you then you should've told me. We can find ways to protect you from the scrutiny. I would've found ways. I'd do anything you want or need me to if it means you not hurting yourself this way."

You saw a tear stream down her cheek and that's when you fell apart. "I know. I just got scared and I-"

She pulled you into her arms. You leaned your head on her shoulder and started to cry. "I don't like the way my body looks and I don't feel good about myself anymore."

Selena was glad you couldn't see the tears falling rapidly from her eyes. "I don't care what they think. I think you're absolutely beautiful. You're perfect just as you are. To me, you couldn't possibly be more stunning. Your beauty shines from the inside out and I'm so lucky to have someone like you."

She murmured in your ear as she rubbed your back up and down, trying to calm you down the best she could. "I need you here with me for a really long time, y/n... so we have to get you some help. Okay?"

She could tell you were hesitant, but she still felt you nod your head anyway, and that brought her a little comfort.

"You're gonna get through this. You wanna know how I know?"

"Yeah."

She pulled away and put her palms on your cheeks. "Because you're the strongest woman that I know. I believe in you and I know that you can recover from this. Besides, I'll be right by your side through it all."

She kissed your forehead, breathing against your skin as you put your arms around her. "I love you, y/n. We'll do whatever it is that we have to do, together."

She held her pinky out and with a teary smile, you locked yours with hers, promising each other that you were in this together.

Selena was gonna do whatever it took to get you feeling like yourself again.