Secrets and Desires

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After dad died I promised myself I would be there for my remaining parent she said sobbing... I took her in my arms and whispered it ok Rachel, please stop crying.. but Dr I should of been there.. You are there now, and I know by just listening to you, your mom know this to.. Your father is so proud of you I said rubbing her back.. You turned your life around completely I said.. She cried for another ten minutes and thanked me.. Please find her she begged.. She's all I have.. We will try Emily said.. Thank you she said.. Do I need to stay here she asked? No go home  Emily said.. Once were review with the team and other family members we will call.. Thank you she said... Emily I really hope we find her mother alive I said.. I know Reid she said.. Emily are you ok I asked? Yes she said.. Are you and JJ ok? Yes she said after hesitation.. Emily please don't lie to me.. I'm not lying Reid she said.. Emily I thought after your death, we wouldn't keep secrets I reminded her... Her face turned red and she said your right.. Spencer I will talk to you after this case, but not doing the case ok? Ok I agreed remembering Hotch warning Are you ok she asked me?I miss Derek I said truthfully.. I know you do, Reid talk to him..I fucked up Emily I said looking down..I fucked up bad.. What did you do she asked.. I looked down and said after the case Em.. I'm holding you to that Spencer.. OK I said, now let's go before Hotch come looking for us... She smiled and I said as we were walking out.. speaking of feelings, don't think I don't notice yours and Hotch.. she turned red making me laugh and said Reid shut up