Secrets and Desires

Chapter 7

I knew he desired me, I thought when I finally pulled myself together.. He wanted me I thought doing a victory dance... I knew he was pissy drink and probably wouldn't remember this, but I would never forget it.. And he would eventually remember bc of that eidetic memory.. It never occurred to me that him calling my name, was him remembering me before he passed out.. Him trying to understand why his best friend was trying to trick sex on him, in an underhanded way... It didn't occur to me that he was calling my name in confusion, not passion.. It didn't even occur to me that I was raping my best friend, even if it was just oral rape..I was so happy to hear My Reid call out my name as I gave him oral pleasure... I went and  warm a  soapy towel to clean him... After that I put his pants back on.. He was to heavy for me to carry, so I just got covers from the lined closet and made him a make shaft bed... I placed two pillows under his head and placed a cover over his body.. I then went to my room, undressed and got into bed.. I couldn't wait until the morning to see if he remembered anything... I love you Spence, please remember I thought.. You are mine I thought, all fucking mine