Wanting to belong..

cant imagine

they ,ade love .. there connection was like no other

chino: this her? you sure? cuz you know she'll make a dam run for it

martin: this bitch pretends to be a good mom online but has the dam record of abuse its fucking public records

chino: fuck ok ill tell her .. this the address?

martin: yea should be it but shes known in her neighborhood

chino: you know it wont stop huera

martin: thats true shit

as morning came ..

she heard her phone rining in her room

joker: mm stay

eliana: my phones ringing let me answer it ill be right back

she kissed him and got up

eliana- sorry i just found my phone

sam- its all good hope your good?

eliana- yea iam .. well kinda i made the call and became friends with our lil brother his names scott and we have a lil sister name susie that aint the fucked up part though

sam- i think i can guess

eliana- yea there trying to locate their number

sam- eli dont

eliana- are we the lucky ones that got away? you would think she would stop reproducing by now after getting us tooken away

sam- what do wanna do?

eliana- hug them tell them there loved that im not goign to hurt them or let anyone hurt them again ..

sam- you cant just roll in eli i know you have a heart and care but

eliana- thats all i wanted growing up .. ive been throw around hurt moved never loved

sam- i get what you trying to do but ladys like that wont go down without a fight you have to confront her because you those kids no matter what love their mom

eliana- then i should talk to her then start something there to get them?

sam- yea .. but im proud of you you still have a heart and some hope i aint tryin to be a dream killer babygirl but

eliana- i know dont worry i love you i wouldnt be here thinking like this without you you gave me hope

she heard the room door open

eliana- have you been cleared for visits?

sam- im about to you wanna make an appointment?

eliana- yea ofcourse that way we can finally meet in person and you can meet my boyfriend

sam- the homie turned vato haha ok i cant wait check the website and theyll notify me i love you eli keep your head up

the call cut

eliana: hey you haha

joker: you want me to go with you?

eliana: yea the two men i care for the most should meet if your ok with that?

he pulled her to him

jokser: why wouldnt i anything for you baby

she kissed him

joker: ay so we gonna talk about last night?

eliana: what about it? haha

joker: i honestly thought you where gonna make me wait haha

she smacked him ..

eliana: your not like the rest you care you make me feel safe i dont have to have my gaurd up with you now or before so why make you wait haha im mad at myself for not saying anything weeks ago

he smiled and kissed her

joker: i shouldve had the balls to tell you but yea you aint leaving my room now move your stuff haha

eliana: haha i will dont worry but you working today?

joker: no we're laying low you shot them up remember haha plus chino texted

eliana: did it cause drama?

joker: no but there connecting shit cuz they saw us at the fair just a day or two babe dont trip

eliana: ok so what chino say?

joker: he'll be here in a bot so go change haha

she was just in his shirt

eliana: im comfortable though haha i have nothing under to?

joker: i dont like quickies go change baby

eliana: dam really? lame haha

she said laughing as she went to change

joker: freak haha wait till later seeif your saying that haha

she got changed and checked her phone .. she thought of calling but got scared

she walked out as chino walked in

chino: heard it was you last night?

eliana: they where talking shit i had to come on haha

chino: fucking huera no getting caught up haha but good shot there all mad

he hugged her

eliana: so?

he looked at joker

chino: uh martin found an address her records everything shits public found her facebook page too shit

joker: that fool is hood as fuck but can find anyone shit

chino: it aint to hard haha

eliana: thats great! right?

chino: the records are of child abuse but on facebook its i love my kids i dont neglect them i swear

joker: oo shit

eliana: that bitch?

chino: same shit i said

eliana: so was there an address?

joker: babe

eliana: what i need to confront her talk to her why does she keep fucking having kids if shes just going to hurt them .. sam was 8 i was 3 there the same age! im scared to even think what she did to me

she went to her room and closed the door

chino: the address is there

joker: i just dont want her to get hurt

chino: ye ai know but thats why she has you is homie she backed you up last night you gotta back her up now .. look this is everything martin found if yall go let me know we got homies in that area

joker: thanks chino

he left .. he knocked on her door .. she opened it

eliana: did he leave?

joker: why you crying? did i make you cry? i didnt mean to say it in that tone ok look

eliana: no .. huh i feel bad and im angry and hurt why ya know why continue this fucking bullshit why does it have to be like this?

joker: im sorry

eliana: no dont be huh i just didnt want him to see me crying or youbut i guess ic ant hide it

he hugged her tight

joker: look he left everything martin found go threw it think it out see what you wanna do ok im gonna go get us some breakfast

she nodded

joker: keep your head up babygirl i know this is alot and its tuff but your strong you got his im here for you to

she hugged him he kissed her and left ..

she took the papers and sat down at the kitchen table ..