Wanting to belong..

On it

she looked at him confused

eliana: i don't get it are they trying to set you up?

joker; i don't know babe

eliana: but you do if he told you?

he shook his head

joker: this is why i wasn't going to tell you i was just

eliana: what? gonna let shit happen? when you can prevent it tell them fuck you? after everything there treating you like shit like really? even treating me like shit when he's my brother? sams not even blood to you and there coming at you side ways?

joker: lokote killed some of there homies that's why he's in solitary .. it ain't only about sam but it'll be ok i can fight shit not like im guilty

eliana: you cant snitch either though?

joker: eliana im sorry ok but i cant tell them to fuck off or say no cuz they'll know then they can kill me im just gonna do this run hope for the best come home and disappear for a bit i don't know

eliana: lets go tonight? fuck it babe

he laughed and shook his head

joker: i cant you have to understand it'll all be ok

eliana: it wont if you leave me then what do i do?

joker: you have my house you'll have your brothers and sisters to keep looking out for im just a piece in your life babe you got a lot more to live for

eliana: but your one of the most important pieces though

joker: your mine to but it has to happen it'll be ok just stay strong babygirl just stay strong for me .. but we have tonight together i don't leave till 8?

she sighed

joker: whats wrong?

eliana: its like im telling you goodbye? i don't like this feeling

joker: your not though im just going out to do a run we might be tripping but it comes with this shit huera you know that

she nodded

eliana: at least one more night right?

joker: hhm lets have some fun haha

she laughed as he grabbed her thigh .. they spent that night in each others arm her gut feeling was bugging her screaming at her to make him stay with her .. but she ignored it

as morning came

eliana: call or text if anything

joker: ill text you if anything ok go to sams give scott the special day he deserves distract yourself from all this babe

eliana: i can distract myself but ill still be worrying about you fuck a text drop your location you know ill come help if anything i don't care

he side smiled and kissed her deeply

joker: i know you don't care but i do and i need you safe go babe it'll be ok i love you

she hugged and kissed him ..

eliana: i love you too

she grabbed her phone and left ..

sam: birthday boy is still out cold lucys been running around like nothin i swear

eliana: so you weren't gonna tell me shit about whats going on?

sam: today ain't about that its about himlets make it about him