joker: why the head shake?
eliana: he was one of the reasons i smiled but i still have my babies my siblings .. i lost my love yea ill miss him forever but i have a small piece of him always with me
they heard some foot steps
scott: why are you guys crying? its early wheres alex? she said she was sleeping over to? what happened last night?
eliana looked at joker as he cleaned his tears
eliana: come here sit down next to me ..
he did he looked at them both
eliana: there was um there was a car accident last night ..
scott: ok?
eliana: yea um vago was driving and loko was with him .. vago didnt make it he lost to much blood the doctors did all that they could
he sat there in shock shaking his head
scott: no? no? your lying? joker tell me shes lying!
eliana hugged him as he broke down
eliana: scott baby im sorry I am i wish i was lying
joker: he isn't in pain scott im sorry
scott: no? he cant be.. what about loko? is he? what happened?
joker: he broke his arm and shoulder it was an accident car got cut off and they lost control ..
scott looked at eliana and hugged her
eliana: sam was behind them he parked his car and was able to pull loko and vago out before the car caught fire
scott: he came back?
eliana: yea he showed up at the hospital hes back and Alexandra gave birth to it was a crazy night but yea huh im sorry scott i want you to know that he loved you he cared for you like his own
scott hugged her tight and wiped her tears
scott: he didnt like to see you cry.. im sorry eli i love you
she hugged him tight
eliana: i know but my hearts broken right now but i know ill be ok i have you guys to fight on for im just gonna be sad for a bit but your an uncle again to a lil girl that i cant wait for you to meet
scott: i cant wait to meet her either
she made him some cereal ..
joker: go get some sleep im gonna be on the couch i got the monitors if anything peter and Isaiah should be up in a bit anyways
she shook her head
joker: what?
eliana: i never wanna sleep in that bed again .. im gonna grab a blanket and crash on the side couch you take the middle one
joker: ok
she went to get a blanket and she laid down she looked at her phone and fell asleep hugging it ..
vago: eli.. babygirl?
she sat up quick and looked around he was sitting across from her in there living room
eliana: whats going on?
vago: why you crying?
eliana: because? wait
vago: babygirl you know i hate to see you cry baby? dont cry for me?
eliana: dont cry for you? i fucking told you i always told you to wear your seat belt why didnt you wear it! why did you leave me!!
he shook his head
vago: dont cry for me eliana you have to fight you have to be happy for our babys i got you guys on this side ok
eliana: no its not suppose to be like this! its not! we're suppose to grow old together we have so much planned babe please! no!
he got up and carresed her face
vago: ill love you till the end of time .. dont loose your smile my love dont you ever stop fighting dont ever stop loving im sorry but im at peace im ok wake up eli
eliana: no i dont want to! i dont wanna wake up i need you!! i need you babe please come back to me come back!!
he shook his head and kissed her head as she woke up
alexia: mama?
she sat up and wiped her tears and hugged alexia
alexia: no cry mama?
eliana: im sorry baby im sorry wheres daddy?
she pointed at the nursery
she got up and picked her up and walked to the boys nursery joker was on the rocking chair with jr in his arms asleep
she put alexia down and covered them both joker woke up a bit
joker: fuck she wake up? im huh he woke up crying so i gave him a bottle and must've of fell asleep
eliana: i needed to wake up anyways its ok its already 10 here let me put him down go crash on the couch babygirl get the blanky and go choose a show with daddy im gonna make you some breakfast he needs a nap
alexia: ok haha
she grabbed his hand
joker: go get the remote baby im coming
she ran off he turned to eliana as she held jr and looked at her baby brother asleep in his crib
eliana: he came to me in my dream and told me goodbye he told me he was sorry and i .. i started yelling at him he said not cry over him hes at peace hes ok like .. fuck i wanted to slap him i didnt wanna leave him i wanna be with vago .. jose i cant do this how do i do it? what do i do?
he walked up to her and hugged her and jr he looked down at him
joker: do it for him he doesn't know he lost his dad .. he needs you he needs his mama just as much as alexia needs you too our babygirl needs you and i need you i cant lose you eliana i love you your my best friend.. i know he didnt wanna leave you or us but this is something we have to to do we have to push on we have them now we have the kids we have to go on for .. but im glad he told you goodbye and that he loved you im glad hes at peace
alexia:daddy!! movie!!
he looked back then at eliana
eliana: go hold her and just fall asleep as long as she has someone there she'll be settled i have to wake everyone else up its late already there gonna be hungry
he nodded and hugged her tight and kissed jrs head
joker: i got yall always .. im gonna do what i have to for you guys
eliana: thank you..
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Wanting to belong..
De TodoGrowing up I always wondered what it felt like to be held, hugged, loved, and cared for what it felt like to have a real home with a mom and dad .. I always wondered ... why me? why couldn't I go home to a real family? .. all I've ever wanted was to...
