he started pulling letters and papers out he went threw it and put it in order
eliana: ok what is all this?
hector: this is his life insurance this one is the cemetery plots i think he labeled this what the fuck and this is ..this has your name on it?
she looked at him confused as he gave her the file .. scared as she was she opened it .. it had a picture of them and letters
hector: he never spoke about death to you?
eliana: he knew how i felt about it so he didnt why?
hector: um he left me a fucking letter this fucking asshole huh fuck man
he sat back holding his tears
eliana: what does it say?
he shook his head
hector: what he wants me to do .. he fucking updated it all when you came into his life he knew you would be his forever so he knew he would never update it the letters are labeled one for you one for each of the kids if anything ever came to happen .. fucking shit man i hate you vago i fucking hate you
he got up eliana got up and hugged him
eliana: breath its ok.. he had told me he was never scared to die that he knew he would go young that he had it all set i hated hearing him talk like that so i would tell just no ya know but huh
hector: this was an accident but its the way his dad died it was outta nowhere he said and he left them in so much debt that his mom just lost it all she lost herself and lost him in the process she never fought his custody and he got lost in the system thats how we met ya know but he always said he would never do that to his family he didnt care
eliana sat down
eliana: so you know his background?
hector: what he never talked to you about it?
eliana: he would drop things here and there but was shut off when i asked deeper questions you know i was open about my shit
hector: yea his dad died i guess on a trip in Mexico leaving him and his sister with his mom here to fend for themselves she spent there last dollars on his body to be brought back and for a proper burial he said after that it was all hell then his sister was left with his mother and it pushed her to kill herself he found her actually
eliana: that he told me .. is his mom alive though? i asked him but he never said a thing
hector: well from what my shit says she'll get a letter from his lawyer if she answers then she is if we dont get nothing then you know
she nodded and pulled out the letters .. he had one for alexia and jr
eliana: these are fucking recent fuck huh
hector: you wanna read them?
eliana: no its for them keep these safe it says for when there older
he nodded as she took her letter and sat down with it
eliana: can you check on the kids tell them to go into the living room just incase i start screaming?
hector: on it ..
he took a letter and walked out
joker: what happened? where is she?
hector: hey yall can you guys go into the living room .. ill explain in a bit but um joker here and sam fuck here ok
sam gave chino alexia and took the letter
joker: the fuck is this man?
hector: there's one for your brother too.. ill give it to him when hes better
sam: what is this hector? did he plot shit?
eliana: no .. he didnt do that .. he just didnt want something to happen he didnt wanna leave this earth with words unsaid he huh fuck garage now come on Isaiah chino?
isaiah: on it dont worry go go
alexia: mama!
eliana: im busy baby go with papa go show him your favorite show get your blanky
chino: lets go princess come on
she nodded and went with them they went into the garage
joker: what?
eliana: he didnt wanna leave this earth without leaving something behind .. he fucking huh he didnt plan nothing no he didnt kill himself his dad was killed and he was left with so many questions that he didnt want that for us i guess so he would sit and write shit out update things mines pages long huh who has a fucking blunt the fattest one?
hector: top drawer
eliana: fucking vago
she opened the drawer and sat down crying
joker: eliana
eliana: why .. why!!! he left letters to alexia and jr he didnt want them to grow up and wonder what happen he didnt want them to think he didnt love them.. these safes are filled with money the rest is in a fucking storage unit under my name i have the key he bought a couple plots up at the cemetery in Burbank where his dads ashes are with his sister he got the ones next to them so he can be with them and me if i decide to he said ..
joker stepped back
joker: how do you write this man?
sam: he was left with questions that he didnt want us or them to ever question it he left it all in these letters ..
hector: its the closure he never got
eliana sat back and hugged her legs and cried shaking her head
eliana: hes gone .. hes gone hes really fucking gone hes never coming back!!!
joker pulled her up and hugged her
eliana: you huh you should read your letter read it he in the last paper he wrote me he talks about you
joker looked down at her confused
joker: why me?
he looked at hector
hector: trust me man im learning new things about him ive known him for over 20 years just read it
joker: ok but here smoke take a breather its ok open the door step out
eliana: yea..
she went outside as he sat down to read it
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