isaiah: im not telling you how to parent but you cant just keep telling her hes at work
scott: you cant lie to her either
she got up
eliana: it'll work for now everyone go get ready come on
scott: eli
eliana: please ok? lisa you to we have to get going
they nodded and went upstairs
eliana took jr out and grabbed alexias hand and took her to the nursery
alexia: i miss my dada where is he he mami?
eliana: we're going to tatas babygirl
alexia: is dada gonna be there?
eliana didnt say anything as she got the kids clothes out
alexia: is dada coming? mama!
eliana: alexia stop it!
she froze herself as she turned to see her babygirl standing there frozen in fear she broke down crying and ran off
eliana put jr in his crib and ran after her
Isaiah: i got you its ok i got you
alexia hid in his arms hugging him tight
eliana: alexia baby im im
Isaiah: go get ready get everything i got her dont trip
eliana: no let me talk to her ok i huh fuck
Isaiah: just go i got her
eliana: alexia im sorry mami im so sorry ok? i didnt mean to yell at you?
she hid her face .. eliana stepped back and took the hint and walked away
alexia:wheres my dada?
isaiah sat down with her and hugged her tight
Isaiah: when your mommys ready to talk to you about it she will .. but know hes with you hes in your heart babygirl hes protecting you now hes your angel
alexia looked at him confused
Isaiah: your to little to understand and its ok i love you and ill always be with you like all your tios and daddy is to ok?
alexia: i just want my dada i miss him
Isaiah: i know we all do baby just like your mommy does to
alexia got off his lap and went back up to the nursery
eliana: you ok?
she walked up to her and put her hands up up eliana picked her up and hugged her as she cried
alexia: no crying? are you hurt?
eliana: my hearts broken thats all but i have you and brother ill be ok .. we'll be ok we'll talk when we come home ok? ill tell you where dada is
she nodded as she put her her down .. they got ready and left
eliana: you mad at me?
isaiah: no i get where your mind is but i never wanna see you scream at her like that ok? please?
eliana: you shouldn't have to tell me or ask me .. i just i just dont know how to explain it? how do i tell her we're gonna see him in a casket? that hes not going to walk threw those doors anymore with toys and his love he loved her like his own since the day she came into this world.. i never wanted to break her heart i wanted her to be loved forever to always be happy .. why do i have to break her heart? shes so small?
isaiah: just be gentle with her be the mom you wished wouldve loved you in the hardest times thats all you can do .. hes gone hes really gone and we have to be there for her his memory will live on threw us for her .. i know she has a dad and she lost her other but she'll get that love from me to even though i knew him for a little while he was the dad i didnt get he treated me like his own
she side smiled at him as she drove
eliana: thank you for that .. thank you i love you
Isaiah: i love you to
they got to chinos she got the kids down
cuete: eli
she turned as he walked up and hugged her tight
cuete: im sorry im so fucking sorry eli i been doing my all to come back into town i was doing my all to take over his spot but i was stuck in new Mexico they needed a driver and he was the best to do it .. its my fault its my fucking fault
he hugged her tight she hugged him and pushed him back
eliana: its not your fault but im glad your home safe this is my brother Isaiah i know you met Alexandra?
cuete: sup lil homie nice to finally meet you
he gave a handshake and hug
alexia: tio!
alexia said as eliana pulled her out of the truck
cuete: huh my lil angel baby look at how big you've gotten how she handling it?
eliana; haven't really explained but im going to have come on lets get inside i have gifts but you have to tell what you did to get stuck out there jrs almost 8 months you haven't met your other nephew fool?
cuete: thats whos in the car seat i thought it was his
Isaiah: naw im smart i dont want any
eliana: good shit but yea this is our lil vagito
she took the blanket off the car seat
cuete: his lil twin
she nodded and smiled .. they went inside they settled in and celebrated Alexandra bringing her baby home
as the afternoon passed hector got there
eliana: didnt think you where coming over? you where in some deep sleep?
hector: yea woke up once i noticed the house was to quiet saw your note and decided to go home and shower and stuff
eliana: you ok? you dont look to good?
hector: hung over and going home home and not my side apartment my office spot or anything just threw me off he left a sweater there and seeing a chair misplaced like he always did just threw me off ..
eliana: feels empty ha
hector: yea but um i paid off the funeral its all set and ready to go
eliana: like planned and date so quickly?
hector: they kept calling and asking me for things i didnt want them to look for you so i just did it i hope thats ok did you want to help or?
eliana: if you wouldve asked i wouldve but thank you i dont think i wouldve been strong enough to do it on my own .. if i didnt have any of you i dont think i would even be here
hector: eliana
eliana: i rather you know the truth than me fake anything .. im not ok im not ok at all
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