Wanting to belong..

Out just like mom

alexia: mama?

she wiped her tears away and turned

eliana: whats wrong baby? wheres daddy?

joker walked up and picked her up

joker: she wanted to see you but look who woke up?

eliana: mamas its passed your bed time just like brothers?

alexia: i want you?

eliana:ok but you have to be good and not go being crazy ok?

alexia: ok haha

they walked down with them ..

alexia: sam!!

he picked her up as she ran to him

eliana: you get her tonight she wont go to bed and hes just woke up

Alexandra: here ill give him a new bottle its nice and warm monkey eat eli plates on the table

eliana: you sure? i can feed him?

alexandra: im fine come on sit eat

she nodded and sat down

sam: i dont wanna add on to anything but i doubt it'll add on things yall might laugh

joker: sam

Isaiah: no lets hear it

sam: start off his dad ain't yalls dad we have the same dad thats why we look alike more

he sat back and looked at eliana

eliana: you asked for it but what else he still dipped and left him or what excuse did he have for all that?

sam: he knew she kept him away because she couldnt have our dad

eliana looked at him

sam: i know i know

eliana: lets get down to it im not mad i dont care cuz im glad your back he still gets to box you cuz i wanna see that happen but where you been what the fuck happened? be truthful come on?

sam sat back and looked at alexia playing with his phone

joker: want me to take her? the OGs are outside smoking she'd love to see her grandpas?

sam: naw i need her i dont it'll mess with her .. but i left because i had to go be alone with my thoughts ok it wasnt cuz i cared ok yea did it hurt it did kinda because there was a lot unsaid i wanted my answers i wanted to know why? why us? why me? why did she do all this and then i went down a dam hole i ended up going to see my dad he didnt take the news ok i shouldn't have told him i think

eliana put her fork down and looked at him

eliana: what are you talking about?

sam: he loved her he loved her a lot and he couldnt live with himself knowing she was gone he was already back on things ya know he called me that same night and said we were all accidents created out of anger that she had towards him he couldnt be with her because his brother had a tie on her the street work and shit like that thats another thing too but that angered me i told him .. thats not right ya know how is it our fault? how can he love someone like that? who brought these kids into this world abused them out of anger we got into it and well yea he um went out the same way she did

eliana: shut up

sam: yup not before telling me go back to them be with them love them be there for each other because thats all you have in this world.. told me to be a better father than he was and to get over her dying because she was using me she never truly cared for me either she had me to tie him down and then Isaiah still didnt work

eliana: what in the hell?

alexandra looked at Isaiah as he sat there confused and mad

joker: ay ay breath come they dont define you they dont matter fuck all that kid come on

Isaiah: naw naw dont think it hurts im just annoyed at the fact that yall got a chance to talk to her and tell her off and you didnt do it right

eliana: you weren't around and im glad but sam

sam: im ok ill be ok i was stupid i should've never left i missed out on a lot i was acting like my dad someone i never wanted to be .. im home now for good and no boxing

Isaiah: pussy ass really? cant handle?

sam: i wanna see what you got lets go bodys?

isaiah: im down

eliana shook her head as she got up and put her plate in the sink

hector: eli can i talk to you?

eliana looked at joker

joker: go i got them ill put him in his crib

eliana: thank you

she went with hector to the garage

eliana: i seriously never came in here because it was his space .. now im never going to touch it or move anything

hector: yea i get you it feels wrong opening these

he said as he sat down ..

eliana: so? whats up?

he opened one that was filled with money her jaw dropped

hector: you know he didnt trust banks this is the savings the college funds this one of many i think the was a storage unit i just found in these fucking files

eliana: what the fuck?

hector: you really didnt know?

eliana: no when you paid me i would try and send shit he would send it back and say keep it the he said he handled all the bank stuff the house what about the mortgage the bills? huh fuck i tried to

hector pulled another file out

hector: house is paid off nothing is owed the monthly bills are paid its all in here i found that out so one thing down .. but he always told anything ever went down it was all in here

he pulled out a small safe and put in on the desk eliana sat down across from him

eliana: did you open it?

hector: i just found it .. i love you eli and i loved this idiot to but i swear he had a thing for safes and money one of these is filled with guns haha im like bro what the fuck

eliana: its a childhood thing i think huh fuck open it hector lets do this

hector: i found the good liquor to wanna take a shot?

eliana: yea only one im gonna save the rest forever i think

he side smiled and opened the bottle they took swigs and he opened the safe