eliana and canela walked out eliana shaking her head wiping her tears
sam: what? is she ok? we heard babygirls cries?
hector: eliana?
joker: canela talk
canela: haha alex surprised eli with babygirls name
eliana: she named her after me
sam: oo shes in for a good one haha
eliana: shut up ok i had to walk out i broke down .. but shes healthy and Alexandra is in recovery they told us to wait out here for a bit while they check on her and everything
they nodded and sat down eliana sat down and set her head on sam and fell asleep
joker: eli
he shook her awake
eliana: what? what?
joker; you been out for like almost an hour sam legs fell asleep
she shook her head and got up
joker; let me take you home come on its almost 6 am we need some sleep
eliana: no i cant leave her i cant
Sam:she's not alone you know that it's safe here
eliana looked at the guys
sam: i know what your thinking but you need sleep come on
she nodded and went to tell Alexandra goodbye
eliana: look at you
Alexandra: it was worth it .. i'd do it all over again
eliana: i know you'll be such a good mama but um i have to go get some sleep chinos staying here social worker will be in a bit i um
Alexandra: try and get some sleep ok i love you thank you for holding my hand on your darkest night ..
she nodded and hugged her
eliana: ill always be here to hold it i love you too .. thank you for being my rock babygirl and you my lil princess i cant wait to see you grow
she hugged her again and they left .. she stayed quiet on the drive back
hector: i wanna stay over but i do have to go do some stuff
eliana: are you sure?
hector: dont worry the anger i have flowing in my blood right now will keep me sober it'll be ok ill be back with lunch dont trip about cooking or anything get some sleep ok? and joker
joker: lokotes ok he calmed down they'll be having him walk later but im staying with her if thats ok with you?
eliana: i dont want you to ever leave .. im scared of being alone right now
joker: whatever you want i got you i just need to go home and get myself some clothes and alexias blanky she left it
she nodded as they got to the house she hugged hector tight
hector: go to sleep ok?
eliana: im gonna finish his letter and shower and knock out
hector: dont read that alone the kids are gonna wake up to you crying
eliana: im a foster kid raised in abuse i know how to cry in silence ill be ok i promise .. jose dont take long please?
joker: i wont
she went in and straight to there room .. she hadn't gone in since he last left his clothes where still on the bed she grabbed his shirt and hugged it and broke down crying ..
hector: whats your plan?
joker: she needs me the kids need me to .. ill move in until she kicks me out i dont care ill get lokote the help he needs im just scared thats all
hector: of?
joker: she doesn't do good with sadness and shes good at hiding a lot of emotion but im gonna come threw on my word for him .. be strong ok and dont make any crazy moves on that lady let her do it with you
hector: dont trip she aint dying ill see you in a bit ..
they went there ways joker rushed it and got back to the house she was in the kitchen
joker: your suppose to be sleeping?
eliana: i went up to our room .. his clothes where on the bed the ones i always yell at him to put in the hamper i hugged his shirt fell down crying got up took a shower almost passed out from the hunger so i came to eat .. i was finishing his letter ..
he put his duffle bag down and sat down at the table with her
eliana: its our 2 year anniversary .. we didnt even turn a fucking year married and he fucking dies on me? .. why does everyone i love leave me jose? why me? i have to bury him? what do i do? then his bitch of a mother huh
he grabbed her hand and held it
joker: i still love you and im gonna be right here till you get fed up of me and annoyed of me loko loves you sam loves we all love you? this was an accident eliana shit fucking happens eli and i fucking wish it wouldve been me honestly not him i huh i fuck
she took her hand away and smacked him
eliana: no it shouldn't have been anyone not him loko or you we have our daughter huh fuck then his stupid fucking letter hes so
joker: what it say well you dont have to tell me but
eliana: what you expect.. its a goodbye he hoped i never had to read it until we where old and in a home somewhere its him forcing himself to say goodbye just incase something ever happened and he knew i hated it when he talked like that but he had to put it all into writing because he never wanted me to question his love or have any doubts that even in the short time we had huh
joker: you dont have to tell me
eliana: no your in this shit to haha he fucking huh he said its death do us part that im free after that .. he knows that you'll be around forever because of our daughter that if anything he wouldn't want me to move on with anyone else but you
she shook her head
joker: he told me to take care of you and alexia and jr to do it all for you guys but that he won though cuz he got to marry you haha fucking asshole i hate that i hated him at a point i wish huh i wish so much could be different but i wish he was still alive .. im sorry your reason to smile is gone
she sat back and shook her head
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