Wanting to belong..

Wake up..

eliana: and herman? please tell me hes not?

joker: he broke his arm and his shoulder and his leg but hes ok

eliana: i dont get it? what happened?

joker: like i said cut off and they flipped a couple times vago well

eliana: i dont wanna know get me to him please

he nodded as he drove as quick as he could .. he parked and she got off and ran inside looking for him all over

nurse: honey honey stop ok

eliana: stop?! hes my husband! not him! no! our sons 5 months old! no!

joker pulled her back and hugged her as she cried

nurse: hes not going to make it if hes disconnected ..

the doctor walked out of his room and looked at them

doctor: eliana casarez?

eliana: yes?

doctor: im sorry.. um we did all we could

joker caught her as she fell

joker: eliana get up babygirl get up come on

eliana: hes dead .. hes dead!!

he helped her sit down and he sat down with her and hugged her

joker: im sorry .. im so fucking sorry babygirl im sorry

eliana: not him? why him!

he didnt know what to say ..

doctor: um you can see him before they come take him and also we need your confirmation that it is him and of his property and your brother is?

joker: can we have a fucking minute please? can we? yea dont tell my brother ok dont tell him whats going on ill be in there in a bit im with her ok? just please man

doctor: im sorry i did everything i could .. he bled to much it was to late after the pain meds kicked in and the tests he was internally bleeding he wouldn't have survived the surgery im sorry honey look i

she shook her head and got herself up

eliana: thank you for doing your best for him .. please make sure herman is ok hes my brother to ill sign whatever you need ill confirm it please let me hug him goodbye? please?

doctor: you can go in .. ill um come back with everything thats the room

she nodded as he walked away she turned to joker

eliana: can you go with me please?

joker: eli

eliana: jose i need you please i cant do this alone.. please

he nodded and got up and hugged her they walked in together she fell to the ground he pulled her up and hugged her as vago was laid back ..

eliana: its like hes asleep .. he cant be dead wake up! wake up!!

joker just hugged her as she screamed and cried

joker: eliana im sorry .. im so fucking sorry

she stepped back and walked up to vago she caressed his face he was cold .. he was truly gone

eliana: you just told me goodbye .. you had just texted me a picture of stupid fucking ihop .. i was always yelling at you to wear your fucking seatbelt why didnt you fucking listen babe i need you!! we need you!! jr.. my baby boy my alexia .. what do i do!!

she hugged his cold body and cried as they heard a knock

joker: im gonna go check ok? or i can

eliana: go but come back ok?

joker: i got you dont trip

he opened the door and walked out

cuete: where is she? what happened?

peter: tell me please tell there lying hes not?

joker: who has the kids? man?

chino: Isaiah does he yelled at us to come and see if you guys where good i called the fucking hospital man?

joker nodded as cuete walked up to him and hugged him

joker: hes dead .. shes in there i cant man

sam: joker

he turned and froze and shook his head

joker: man really? really! right now!

eliana opened the door and saw sam

sam: eliana im .. im

she walked up to him and slapped him hard and hugged him crying he hugged her back as she cried

joker: i have to go see loko i have to check on him eli

she turned to him and nodded

eliana: go ill be right there make sure hes ok? but who has the kids?

chino: Isaiah yelled at us to come alex said they got them dont worry but babygirl? mi vida?

she walked up to them with tears in her eyes .. they hugged her as she cried

eliana: hes gone .. hes fuckign gone! like nothing!!

sam sat down and held his head as joker walked away and into lokotes room

lokote: wheres vago .. wheres fuckign vago jose please ok im fine i need to get to him he huh

joker: lay down come on there gonna sedate your ass you cant walk yet

lokote: i dont give a fuck do you hear me! i need to see him!

joker: hes dead.. they couldnt save him

he froze and fell back and fainted he flat lined joker ran out and yelled for the nurses the doctors and nurses ran in as eliana ran to joker

joker: he was fighting me trying to get up to look for him i had to tell him he huh he fainted he uh

eliana pushed passed the nurses as they heard his heart come back

doctor: hes ok hes alive just have to stabilize him ok

eliana: loko please baby boy you cant leave me to ok?

she said as she walked up and grabbed his hand he turned his head to her with tears in his eyes

lokote: im sorry.. i tried i tried to get him but i couldnt .. i couldnt move

she put her hand on his face with a side smile

eliana: its ok rest ok i need you? so please ok?

he turned back to joker then sam

lokote: im sorry

joker: rest up you know your heart isn't to strong you need to relax ok please? i cant lose another brother

he nodded and squeezed elianas hand she hugged him and cried ..

the doctors sedated him .. they walked out

sam: i wasn't to behind i .. i saw the minivan cut them off on a curb it looked like he didnt wanna hit the old man walking on the side of road he lost control i saw the car fly it flipped so many times i rushed to park and i ran to them he was coughing up blood as lokote screamed at me to get him out to hurry and i did but he was just coughing up blood .. i begged him to stay with me to stay but he wasn't answering .. he was gone before they got him here i saw the emts start compressions..

she sat down next to joker he just held her as she cried