Wanting to belong..

Hes gone

canela: eliana!!!

she ran up and froze when she saw them ..

canela; no..

eliana got up and nodded

canela: your lying? your fucking lying?

eliana: i wish .. vagos gone

her eyes went wide and hugged her as they both cried .. sam looked at joker

joker: why were you behind them? why were you even out here they said you were coming back tomorrow.

sam: i been going with them i was the other back up i was gonna see what vago was doing so he could stay behind he was done doing these drives he said if i was coming back i had to man up and do some real work .. i had told him to stay behind on this one because i knew it was there anniversary so i would just wing it with lokote ya know like we always did but he said he didnt want me to fuck up something important this was important ya know .. i fucking wish he wouldve listened i told him to just stay

hector ran up and lookedat them

hector: tell me the nurse is lying tell me he is?

eliana turned to him he didnt say a word he hugged her tight

hector: eliana .. please forgive me please im sorry

eliana: its not your fault? its not.. it was an accident accidents happen but you know how we yelled at him to put that fucking seat belt on

hector: i always did to thats why he loved his bike he was more free fuck man not vago? not my brother? not him? .. no

he hugged eliana again ..

they sat down in silence .. joker would hug her then hector she stayed away from sam as the doctor walked up

doctor: eliana?

she looked up and nodded

eliana: can i say goodbye one last time?

doctor: yea the funeral home is here you can set everything up here but the more has to take him ok? are you do you need any medical attention you look pale?

eliana: the shock and i haven't ate but ill be ok dont worry let me just um sign this

he nodded as he opened the room door she looked back at sam

eliana: you left me when i needed you.. i need you now please

he nodded and got up and walked in with her she broke down

eliana: why.. why you i need you babe please wake me up from this nightmare i need you!! vago please!!

sam sat down with her on the ground and hugged her as she cried

eliana: why him!

chino walked in with peter and saw her

chino: get up eliana

eliana looked up at them

chino: get up come on babygirl you have to get up

peter walked up and pulled her up and hugged her chino helped sam up

doctor: im sorry for your loss ..

peter: you did what you could for him thank .. but eliana mija we love you like our own we've held your hand as the years have passed and we will continue to hold it but your a mother you have lil ones that need there mother more than ever and you know dam well you have all of us behind you do you understand? and i know .. i know vago is with us too hes with you he'll always will be ok? but you have to push on you have to be strong do you understand? please

she nodded and hugged him

eliana: all i ever wanted was to have my own lil family and made it .. he was ripped from me we where just talking our shit him telling me to be serious because i can never be he completed me he was there daddy alexia called him dada and joker her daddy .. what do i tell my babies .. what do i do how do i go on? i can have the support but how? he was my world he made my cold heart warm again..

she walked up to him and hugged his body as the more walked in

eliana: ill love you forever you'll forever have my heart ill see you again i know i will but visit me please visit my dreams hug the kids dont let them fall thank you for giving me my lil vagito our lil boy .. im sorry my love i wish i could've saved you like you did me

she signed the papers and watched them cover his body and take him out chino held her as they walked out

chino: stand up eliana come on babygirl you fight on for him

eliana: i know .. i will i promise i will

the nurse walked up with his wallet his phone and jewelry

nurse: i made sure to take everything because they tend to loose things its all here ok? i cleaned off the blood also

eliana: thank you so much means a lot

the nurse nodded as they sat down .. eliana couldnt make herself go threw the bag or even look at it

joker: you need to eat come on lets go tot he cafeteria there gonna check looks heart and wake him to see how his leg is come on

she shook her head

joker: im not going to let you starve yourself our daughter needs you get up eliana

she looked up at him

eliana: promise you'll treat jr and love him like your own? please?

joker: why would you even question that? ofcourse hes my lil boy i been teaching him cuss words already

she shook her head and wiped her tears and got herself

sam: call them isaiahs been asking for you checking in with you i get cussed out every time

eliana: fuck i should

she pulled her phone out and froze at her screen it was a picture of them ..

joker: hes worried come on lets make the walk

she nodded and looked threw her contacts

isaiah- eli

eliana- i need you to be strong for me ok? did sam tell you?

isaiah- yea he told me and alex im sitting down with her shes ok though i calmed her down babygirl is ok shes moving i gave her sugar the kids are asleep scott and lisa asked for you so did alexia but i told them you went to the store with joker to buy stuff you'd be back i know i shouldn't lie but

eliana- no your being a big brother thank you .. thank you you dont know how much it means how the boys? hows my jr?

isaiah- alex gave them a quick bath i helped and they knocked out hes been asleep in his swing hes not far from us .. i got them ok you dont need to worry about home but im sorry eli i am i knew something was wrong when he started blowing everyone up is lokote ok? what happened?

she explained it all to him