Wanting to belong..

Ahh shit

mi huera

i know im the last person you wanna talk to or hear from .. but its been a bit and ive only heard news from lokote about our babygirl .. I've tried my all to get to you to talk things out with you i know I've said my shit and im sorry I am i was stupid i was stressed in that moment babygirl? i love you your my world and their ain't nothin i wouldn't do for you .. eliana please talk to me let me know personally your ok tell me about our daughter? im tired of hearing shit from the streets that i know ain't true? lets talk do something? you didn't even let me explain myself? at least write me back about her? was she born yet? whats her name going to be? .. i know i talked out of my ass before but know you would never do that to me or do that in general i love you and im sorry i hope we can talk things our for our babygirl ..

joker

she put the letter down

eliana: fucking asshole ..

peter: mija

eliana: no why now? if he would've thought his shit out then this would've never happened i wouldn't hate his fucking guts he believed the streets over me and i dont know what the fuck hes hearing out there again well i think i know what but huh

peter: look be truthful with him talk about your babygirl he has another year tops but this lil girl is his and she deserves a good father we know the fucker is an idiot but he would be a good dad

she nodded and looked down

peter: whats wrong haw?

eliana: im talking to someone else.. he doesn't care that im pregnant with someones else kid he cares about me has made me feel important for the first time in a bit after what he did .. i know hes the father i know he would be a good one but ..

peter: im happy for you im happy your allowing someone to put you first its hard being alone mostly threw this time .. look just be real with him and send it out that's all you have to do send it from here to so he can think you live with me

she nodded

peter: dont feel guilty putting yourself first its ok

eliana: yea thanks for the letter

she hugged him

peter: your gonna pop soon you gonna let us throw you a babyshower or what haw? shes our granddaughter?

eliana: you dont have to do nothing like that im ok

peter: we're celebrating her shes important to us shes our babygirl to? what do you say this weekend? here?

eliana: ok then haha thank you ..

peter: head up come on im proud you but ay bring that fool with you we wanna get to know this man of yours

eliana: hes a homie still he hasn't asked so nothing crazy ok?

peter: hhm dont worry haha

she hugged him and left ..

canela: what do you wanna do?

eliana: ill answer him once shes born and ill send him pictures of him im gonna keep it about her that's all

canela: so its over over

eliana: imagine sam questioning your babysaying he heard shit on the streets right as your gonna surprise him with the sex and all after he has always talked about having a babygirl think about that shit

canela: no i get that i would chop his dick off infornt of the guards i dont know how you didn't loose your shit

eliana: yea and infront of all the other females in that fucking visit too think about how embarrassed i was and i felt so alone after that? yea .. i love him i care for him that'll never leave me but im hurt and vago well vago makes me feel seen loved cared for and its not just for being pregnant

canela: let joker know how you feel and see how shit is when hes out ok?

eliana: yea ill see how it goes .. but how are you? how do you feel being a mommy?

canela: i love it and i love him so much sam wants a baby now but this ones enough haha

she laughed

eliana: see glad you stayed with me plus i love your energy here with me thank you

canela hugged her ..

the weekend came by ..

vago: you sure?

eliana: haha you've asked me how many times? their my homies yes their OGs but they raised me in a way and there my blood they'll question shit but its all nice dont worry i told them about you also

vago: do they know baby girls dad?

she sighed

eliana: yea they do and i dont care if he finds out well i think he does already you know the streets but that's none of his business

vago nodded and grabbed her hand

eliana: why you quiet?

vago: well i was going to wait for this until after babygirl made her day view but .. eliana you've become someone important to me someone i care about dearly and im blessed to have you both in my life i wanted to ask you if you'd be my girl

she side smiled at him

eliana: your dumb ass hell you know that haha

vago: really why?

eliana: haha look at my belly boy and you ain't the daddy and its known but you wanna play a role you dont have to

vago: that's not being dumb that being a man plus i want you in my life those soft lips got me hooked

she smiled as he caressed her face ..

eliana: ill be your girl .. but thank you for being real with me

vago: you need a real one in your life babygirl and i need one in mine

they got to peters .. he helped her down and hugged her and kissed her

vago: anyone says shit or brings homie up dont stress it i dont care all i care about is you

she nodded as he held her hand and they walked in ..