Wanting to belong..

deliquents

joker: you dont get it shes suicidal shes tried

chino: wait what? who knows this? do my brothers know?

joker: no she made me swear i would never tell a soul .. that's why im tripping

chino: shes a broken sould .. stay awake ok and let me know when she wakes up we're gonna have a talk

he nodded .. chino left

he walked out

jose: so shes moving in?

joker: yea

jose: man your girl is going to trip

joker: shes paying rent not like its free plus homegirls over any other female shit

jose: 5 bucks eli decks jenny haha

joker: shut up dumbass haha

they kicked back .. she woke up eventually but couldn't get herself to get up she kept crying and thinking .. why didn't her mom ever look for her try to fight her .. why didn't she love her ..

she heard the door opening she pretended to be asleep

joker: i know your up wake up

she shook her head

eliana: leave me alone i need some time

he closed the door behind him

jokser: whats going on you where going to leave Friday? this was going to happen eli?

she shook her head

eliana: there's more to it ok a lot more that no one knows and its fucking me up

joker: what is it? is that why you popped those pills?

eliana: i popped them because i didn't wanna feel the pain anymore

he sat down on the edge of the bed

joker: chino got his brothers over .. they wanna talk

she sat up

eliana: what? why?

joker: he was with me when i found you .. he drove while i carried you

eliana: huh great

joker: they mean well and they love you come on before chino comes and gets you

he helped her up and hugged her tight

joker: you ever scare me like that again your catching a fade i swear

eliana: im sorry ..

joker: don't be .. i know your broken and shits fucked up but talk eli tell us whats going on? we care .. I care

eliana: no cuz ill cry and i ain't no bitch.. ill talk to them yea ill somehow deal with it

he sighed

joker: i know you ain't a bitch but popping pills getting high ain't gonna do nothing but numb it the high goes away

eliana: i hate that your a therapist

joker: haha im yours and your mine now come on

she nodded and they walked out

eliana: wooow whats this a family reunion?

chino: sit

eliana: chino

peter: your like a daughter to us mija please listen

eliana: did you snitch?

joker: sit down listen

she rolled her eyes and sat down

chino: he didn't have to say anything you weren't waking up i saw the pill bottle myself you said you took 5

eliana: i meant to say 6 haha

Miguel: ay this ain't funny babygirl .. whats going on? you trying to kill yourself?

she looked back at joker and looked down

eliana: I've tried but joker and jose have stopped me from jumping .. i pop pills so i wont feel the pain its not daily well it kinda has been lately

chino: whats the root of it whats causing you this pain?

miguel: we ask cuz we care about you we lost our mother to suicide

eliana: i know you guys care your my only family ya know

she took a deep breath

eliana: i was stupid .. i wanted to know about my mom i wanted to see what happened .. looking down that dam fucking path led me to reread things my old reports of bullying abuse I've gone threw in this dam shit all the moving i did till i was 15

chino: that's when joker brought you over

joker: i knew i had to she was getting bullied

eliana: yea

martin: that ain't it fess it up i ain't stupid cuz i know if we get up and leave you're going to continue down this path huera

she looked at them with tears in her eyes

elian: i .. i was told by my case workers growing up that my birth mom had dropped me off at the police station because she couldn't take care of me .. i believed it till I started looking into my case why would they have her info if she left me

chino: fuck

eliana: oo its only the start you want me to show you the papers? .. they took me away because of abuse and neglect i was 3 she never fought for me she never did shit .. reason why i couldn't get adopted because the case stayed active incase she ya know tried to get me back .. so i never got the forever home i just got the trash bags and come on next home till this last case worker saw me dealing and told me pack your shit haha

they sat back as she wiped her tears away

chino got up and pulled her up and hugged her .. she broke down

martin: do we have to kill the case worker? or find the assholes that hurt her?

she laughed and cleaned her tears

eliana: let them be there doing there job and those people got caught to

joker: your stuck with the wonder of why

she looked back confused

eliana: yea and i dont think its true she hurt me but i wonder why she never tried to find me or fight for me

joker: yea my mom died when i was 7 lokote was 10 our dad was a homie of there's .. he lost us with his drinking when he went away chino got us back out here but our dad never made it out he died in prison .. foster homes where a bitch i fought every fucking day with everyone

chino: they gave them to me like nothin they where fighters that just wanted to go home

eliana: you got adopted you had someone to fight for you i never got that chance i fought kids and adults reason why im good at running and dodging hits and throwing right hooks i learned

joker: yea we got lucky .. but im sorry just know you ain't alone eli you got a big familia of deliquents haha

she laughed as he hugged her tight