I stared at the box of tampons for a long ass time as my mind raced. I didn't know how I was supposed to feel about this.
There were so many reasons that I could have missed my period. We literally went on a 12 hour plane ride which could have effected it.
I was extremely stressed which could have stopped it from coming.
I couldn't have been pregnant. We always used multiple sources of protection, there was literally no way I could have gotten pregnant.
At least I didn't think I could.
I took a deep breath then dropped the tampons on the ground and bee lined to my keys so I could go get a pregnancy test.
I thought about calling someone to help me through this but I didn't want anyone to know what was going on before I knew for sure.
I didn't listen to music or anything as I drove to the pharmacy. I couldn't concentrate on anything but the shock that was flooding through my veins.
When I got there I walked over to where the pregnancy tests were and grabbed every single kind, feeling the nerves settling in.
It wouldn't be the worst thing in the world being pregnant but it wasn't our plan by any means. Colby and I wanted to go on adventures and travel the world together before we had kids.
I wasn't ready to have a kid.
I went over to the check out and put all the tests on the counter as well as two giant bottles of water. "Oh my...you're in my thoughts." The girl behind the counter said as she started scanning all of the tests. I nodded slowly, keeping my eyes down.
I didn't know why I was so embarrassed to be doing this considering I was married and it was perfectly normal for people my age to be getting pregnant.
I guess I just didn't know how to face this.
I paid for all of the tests and the water then got in my car. I grabbed one of the water bottles and shakily undid the cap, before chugging it.
I could feel the tears starting to form as the stress built up. I started to over analyze everything I have done in the past few weeks.
I was so zoned out that I didn't even realize that I was pulling into the driveway again. "Okay, Violet. It's okay. You probably aren't pregnant. Your period is just late because of the travel." I said to myself as I scrubbed my face with my hands.
I sat in the car for a minute before my phone started ringing. I gasped then looked to see that Ki was calling.
"Hello?" I asked as I looked down at my bag of pregnancy tests. "Hey babes! What are you doing?" She asked as I shook my head.
I wanted to tell her I was about to find out if I had a literal human in my body, but I didn't want to tell anyone what was going on.
"Uh..cooking dinner." I said quietly as I got out of the car. "Boring. I wanted to see if you wanted to come over." She said as I shook my head.
"I can't right now." I said as she paused. "Are you okay?" She asked as I shook my head. "Yeah, I'm great." I lied then started going inside. "Okay, you're just quiet." She said as I walked up to the bedroom.
"Yeah, just tired." I said then chewed my lip. "Take a nap!" She said with a laugh as I nodded. "I think I will. I'll talk to you later." I said as she sighed. "Bye, V. Love you." She said as I grabbed one of the pregnancy tests and looked down at it.
"Love you too." I said then hung up. I stared at the pregnancy test for a second before taking a deep breath.
"You're not pregnant." I said to myself then opened the box and went to go take the test.
