We sat and talked to my parents for a long time before we decided it was time to go talk to Beatrice.
"Okay, we're gonna go. I love you guys so much." I said quietly as I rubbed my hand on my parents tombstone.
"They love you, too." Colby said as he kissed my head. "I know." I said with a small smile.
"Let's go." I said then held my hand out to him. "I'm proud of you." Colby said as we walked. "You've said that so much recently." I said as he nodded. "Yeah, you've just been so strong on this trip." He said as I nodded.
"I've also cried more on this trip than ever before." I said as he shrugged. "I'd cry too if I saw half the shit you've seen in the past 24 hours." He said as I chewed my lip.
"Yeah...I don't know." I said then looked around as we walked. I couldn't even fathom how Colby could think I was so strong because I have never felt more weak in my life. I just constantly felt like I was going to break down at any moment.
That didn't make me strong at all.
When we got to the car I held my hand out towards Colby. "You wanna drive?" He asked as I nodded. "Yep." I said as he chuckled and handed me the keys. "Alrighty then." He said as I smirked and unlocked the car.
I wanted to drive so I could actually relax in the car a little bit. I trusted Colby's driving and I trusted him with my life but I needed to just drive so I could control the situation.
We drove in silence as my mind raced. I was so worried about seeing Beatrice and possibly Daisy because I didn't want to endure any more heartbreak.
When we got to the house I felt my heart race in my chest. "Did you want me to come in with you?" Colby asked as I nodded.
"I need moral support." I said as he smiled slightly. "I'll always be your moral support." He said quietly as I nodded. "I know." I said then opened the door.
I could feel my heart starting to race as we made our way to the front door. I wanted to stay strong but I could feel my hand start to shake as the nerves piled on.
"Hey...you've got this." Colby said quietly as he took my hand. "I hope so." I said then knocked on the door. We waited a few minutes before someone opened the door.
"Violet?" Beatrice asked as I nodded. "Can we talk?" I asked as she nodded. "Of course, come in." She said then opened the door more so we could walk into the house.
The heaviness in my chest was building up as we walked through the familiar house. "Did you want anything to drink?" Beatrice asked as we walked into the living room. "No, thank you." I said then sat down.
"Okay....I just wanted to say I'm sorry I hid such a big secret from you. I just couldn't fathom telling you and hurting you more than you were hurt." Beatrice said as I shook my head.
"You let me live under the same roof as her for years." I said quietly.
"I know. I know it was horrible and I wish I could take it back." Beatrice said with a thick voice.
"I know you didn't mean to hurt me but finding this out has absolutely gutted me." I said as I fiddled with my rings.
"I trusted you so much and to know you lied to me for years and basically forced Daisy to fake a friendship with me." I said as Colby put his hand on my leg, rubbing his thumb against my thigh gently.
"I know I broke your trust, Violet. I know what we hid was awful but I just wanted to protect you. You were already hurting so much that when you got back from the hospital I could see you were doing better already." She said and looked down at her lap.
"I didn't want to be the reason you broke again." She said as my heart shattered. I could tell she cared about me so much but it was just a hard situation.
She knew she messed up but I didn't know if I was ready to forgive her.
"I just know if we can recover from this." I said quietly as she nodded. "I understand but please just know that-" Beatrice started but was interrupted by someone walking into the room.
"Oh...sorry." Daisy said as Colby took my hand, holding it tightly. "Daisy, go upstairs." Beatrice said as I shook my head.
"No. I want to hear what she has to say." I said as she scrunched her brow. "Seriously?" She asked as I nodded.
"I'm seriously sick of your shit, Daisy. All of this is starting to make sense though. I need to know more." I said as she sighed and walked into the room. "There's really not much more to tell." Daisy said as I shook my head.
"So, you found out that the car you hit was my parents and you thought that it would be an amazing idea to just not tell me and pretend everything is okay." I said as the anger started building up.
"THEN you started to resent me because you felt trapped in our friendship when YOU were the reason for it! I would have been fine going to Colorado by myself if I knew you were going to become an asshole and try to kill me! I wouldn't have let you come with me if I knew that you killed my parents!" I yelled as my eyes welled with tears.
"I get it, Violet. I know I'm the worst person in the world and I know that things between us went really wrong but I can't tell you how sorry I am." Daisy said as my lip quivered.
"We were best friends." I whispered as she nodded.
"We were. Then I made a horrible mistake and I just didn't know how to cope with it. When you went to the mental hospital, I went to therapy since I knew I would need help figuring out how I was going to handle what I did." Daisy explained as Colby help my hand tightly, giving me comfort.
"We decided that we needed to just let you mourn, then we were going to tell you. When you got back though, you were still broken but you were doing better. We changed our plan and just thought it would be best to keep you in the dark so you could heal." Beatrice explained as I wiped my eyes.
"I loved you so much, V. I wanted to go with you to Colorado at first because I didn't want you to go alone but when we got there I started getting homesick." Daisy explained as I watched her intently.
"I felt like I owed you though so I just tried to suck it up, until I started to resent you. I tried to keep it together though because I knew what I did." She said with a sigh then looked at Colby.
"Then when we won the contest I was so excited. I loved you guys more than anything and you helped me through so much." Daisy said as I looked up at Colby.
He had a blank look on his face as he looked at her. I could tell he was trying to stay calm and stay supportive towards me.
"I was so convinced that we would fall in love. I thought that I already loved you before I even knew you so when you fell in love with Violet it was the last straw." Daisy explained then looked at me again.
"I obviously couldn't handle the pain from it and I just snapped. I blamed all of my pain on you and I'm sorry." Daisy said quietly as I sighed.
I stared at her for a second, really taking in what she's saying. I could tell she was being honest and vulnerable which was something I haven't seen from her in so long.
"I forgive you." I said as her mouth dropped open slightly. "You do?" She asked as I nodded. "Yeah." I said then looked at Beatrice. "I forgive you, too." I said as she sighed.
"I never wanted to hurt you, Violet. I love you like a daughter and I hope you know that." She said as I nodded.
"I know. It still hurts a lot, and it's going to take a while to truly get over this but you've done more good for me than bad. I can't blame you for making a bad judgment call." I said quietly as Beatrice stood up.
"That's what it was. I promise. I never wanted to hurt you." She said then hugged me. "I know." I said quietly, even though my heart was still tattered.
I knew I would be bothered about this for a long time but there was no way I would ever start to heal if I didn't forgive Beatrice and even Daisy. I just needed to accept that it was something of the pass.
I needed to forgive them to heal.
