Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW//Mentions of self harm and rape

I laid on my side facing Draco and him doing the same as I let his thumb stroke the under of my eye.

"You're so beautiful you know that?" He gushed and I felt my cheeks heat up as I quickly shook my head in disagreement.

I watched as his face fell and he pulled me closer to him while still keeping his eyes on me "you my love are beautiful in every way possible" I smiled at his words and felt his lips on my forehead.

I stared up at him letting his eyes wandering my face while his hands explored my body, running up and down my leg he pulled it over his body before furrowing his brows lightly.

His fingers ran across my thighs and he sat up pushing the blanket off us and moving to sit next to my legs where his eyes stayed locked on my inner thigh.

Lips pressed in a firm line he sighed and silently asked for permission to remove the shorts I was wearing which I gave him permission to do knowing that his actions were not sexual in anyway.

Once removed he sat between them with a sad look on his face before leaning down to kiss every cut and scar that remained on my pale skin.

This was his wordless way of telling me he loved everything about me, all the imperfections, flaws, scars, cuts, bruises, everything.

His kisses were soft and he made sure not to hurt me, he was clearly upset that I was using self harm as a coping mechanism but he didn't get mad and I knew he would never get mad at me for it.

I knew he needed to know what happened that night, how the memories flooded to me and I lost control breaking my 2 year clean streak.

I was ready to tell him so I took a deep breath and pulled him up to hover over me by his chin.

"I have something to tell you—about that night when my mother died that I haven't told anyone" I started and he nodded keeping his face close to mine.

His warm breath hit my mouth as I looked at him and a shaky breath left my lips before I closed my eyes taking a deep breath to calm my nerves.

"Take your time"

"I was raped"

He froze and moved to the side of me, his lips parted slightly and something in his eye told me he didn't know how to respond to what I just admitted and I didn't blame him for it.

My thoughts raced and I sat up letting my back rest against the headrest of his bed whilst keeping my eyes on him, never letting them leave his as a tear fell.

"He—he knocked my mom out, petrified her then pulled me into a different room where he—" I stopped as I started clawing at my thighs subconsciously to make them bleed but stopped when Draco grabbed my wrists.

"He held me down— I was screaming and then he— he—" I broke down and let my head fall into the crook of his neck where he comforted me while still in physical shock of my confession.

He didn't say much, it was the first time I had told anyone this but I knew that with him— with Draco I was safe and no one could hurt me anymore, I was safe, I was finally safe.

His arms were wrapped around me tightly as if to say he was there for me as he pressed lingering soft kisses on my temple.

It felt like a load of bricks was lifted off my shoulders as I relaxed in the blondes arms as he hummed quietly and nuzzled his face into my cheek where he left kisses.

"I love you ferret" I whispered as he laid back onto his back again with me on top of him looking down to meet his eyes that filled with pain though a small smile still played his lips because of the nickname.

"I love you too—no one can hurt you, not anymore, you're mine and I'll protect you from anyone who tries to hurt you" his eyes softened as he spoke, his hand rested on my cheek and I smiled.

His, I was his.

I was my own person but still I was his and he—he was mine.

"No one will lay a finger on you in a negative way, if they do I'll hunt them down and I'll kill them myself—I'll even check for the monsters under your bed—" I giggled at the comment, he was trying to cheer me up, make sure I knew I was safe wit him.

"—and in your closet, I'll sleep next to you through your nightmares and I'll be your security blanket everynight till the day you decide you no longer need me but dispite all that I want you to remember that you are the most beautiful, the strongest and most independent girl I've met—but if you need me to hug you while you sleep, to kiss away your tears or calm your nightmares, I'm here and I will always be here my love"

"Always?"

"Always," with that I leaned down letting my lips meet his softly for a moment only before pulling back and looking at him with a smile.

"I'm yours my love, I will always be yours, that's a promise" he whispered as I leaned down, cuddling my face into his neck to let the silence consume us for a bit.

I wasn't done though, now that I was calmed down I could finish my previous words as I was so rudely cut off by my emotions.

I moved slightly to let my eyes roam his face copying his movements as he did the same "I never told anyone what happened to me because everytime I think about it this happens" I whispered glancing down to my scar covered thighs.

I expected, for some reason, that he would look disgusted with me but instead he held a soft expression as he kissed my cheek gently before glancung at the clock.

"I love everything about you, your eyes—" he left a kiss on my eyelids which made me smile "your freckles—" he placed a kiss onto my cheeks where my freckles stayed "your hair—" he kissed my forehead "your adorable nose and rosy cheeks" he pressed kisses all over my face then pushed my shirt up to reveal my stomach.

"I also love your scars—hate how they came to be because I wish you wouldn't hurt yourself—but I love them regardless because your scars are your proof that you can and you will get through this" he told me as he moved down to kiss my stomach where my healed scars were.

Then he moved down to kiss my thighs where my fresh scars were that still hadn't fully healed and some opened to do me clawing at them.

He took his time, making sure to avoid what was between my legs, we weren't ready for that, I especially wasn't ready for that.

When he was done he rested his head onto my stomach and I smiled "never forget how much I love you, how I would do anything in the world to make sure that you are safe and happy, Iris never forget that no matter what you are going through I love you regardless—I love you and I would scream it from the rooftop so everyone knew that I'm yours and you are mine"

He moved up to leave a soft kiss on my lips but then moved back down to rest his head on my stomach keeping eye contact with me.

"Merry Christmas my love— happy anniversary"