Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// implication of self harm

Pansy and Ruby have been inseparable as it was now no longer a secret that the two of them were a couple.

I always knew that Ruby was a into girls, though she never officially came out to me it was because she didn't need to due to her being very open about her crushes on females.

Though she does always talk about how hot or cute boys are, but in her words 'just because I find him cute or hot doesn't mean I like him' which is true.

So Ruby's love for women was not what shocked me, instead it was the fact that Pansy was also into girls and not just boys, then again the only person she ever openly talked about having feelings for was the same blonde idiot I'm dating.

But seeing her happy with Ruby who I knew was hopelessly in love with the brown haired girl before she, herself knew was the only thing that mattered to me as they were my best friends.

But seeing Ivy so hurt and not being able to do anything because I had never experienced a heartbreak like that before was what tore me apart inside.

Ivy rested her head on my shoulder, clearly she was drunk even if she didn't want to admit it, I could smell the alcohol on her breath and her words slurred together.

"Blaise is in love with you" the confession was sudden and it was obvious that she didn't know I already knew this as she spun around, her head landing in my lap.

I didn't respond instead I awkwardly bit the inside of my cheek looking forward at the two girls ahead whos eyes widened.

"I wonder what Draco would say about that" Ruby teased making me chuckle and lay down on the bed, my head hanging upside down off the edge.

Suddenly Ivy was off my lap, the door swung open and her drunken yells for Draco is what pulled us back into reality.

We cursed loudly, chasing the dark haired girl out of the room and saw that she stood in the middle of the common room looking as lost as ever when she realized the blonde who was sitting infront of the fire was now gone.

Blaise looked at me shrugging as he walked over to me "he just left, he didn't say anything but he looked.. almost dreadful" he said and I nodded excusing myself from the room.

He had been disappearing some nights, Harry confronted me about it asking if I knew what he was up too but I didn't know and now I was going to find out.

Luckily I caught up with the blonde but kept my distance as I followed him through corridors till he reached a dead end.

I narrowed my eyes making sure not to make a sound when I watched a door slowly appear infront of me.

The room of requirement

He looked around and I ducked around the corner to make sure he didn't see me before following him into the room.

I hid behind a pile of random stuff, the blonde still in view as he pulled on a large cloth revealing a tall, old, creaky cabinet.

My heart sunk as I had a bad feeling about this.

Then he turned around and I panicked, falling over causing some rubble to fall over next to me.

"aster"

"aster I know its you"

He only called me that when he was upset, so I stood up slowly but didn't reveal myself.

"aster, I'm not mad"

I walked into view, seeing him lower his wand slowly and he sighed with relief opening his arms for me.

I was hesitant, just looked at him and was frozen in place because I wanted to run towards him, throw myself into his arms but something about him calling me by my middle name felt off.

"Iris"

I snapped when my name slipped from his mouth softly as I ran at him and threw my arms around his torso.

There was a long moment of silence between us as he held me to his chest, one hand in my hair while the other rested on my lower back.

I grabbed onto the back of his jacket, his lips pressed onto the top of my head as he stroked my hair softly.

"Why did you call me Aster, you never do unless you're mad at me" I spoke quickly as a tear fell from my face, I was overwhelmed and confused.

"To protect you—I saw you but I didn't know if someone followed you" he told, tighting his grip around me before turning his head, lifting it off the top of mine.

He sighed, "I suppose you want an explanation.." I nodded and he dropped his arms from around me as I did the same stepping back.

I looked up at him, his eyes seemed conflicted, like he didn't want to tell me and I narrowed my eyes waiting for an explanation that would never come.

"You're not going to explain are you?" I asked getting slightly irritated with the blonde as a dry laugh left my lips and I continued "you're not going to explain why you've been sneaking around? why you're here? what that is?"

I pointed at the cabinet behind him when he pushed my arm down moving infront of me, his hand still holding my wrist.

"that is a vanishing cabinet Aster" I pulled my hand back from his grip and felt tears stinging my eyes from his stern tone.

I shook my head as the worst came to my mind "I was going to tell you when I-" I cut him off, throwing my hands up in defeat and I let the tears leave my eyes.

His eyes softened but when he stepped forward I yelled stop and stepped back.

"You were going to tell me? tell me what, you're sneaking out of the castle for what reason? are you seeing someone else?" The question left my lips suddenly and I didn't even realize what I asked till he froze, confusion and hurt filled his eyes.

His lack of argument is what hurt me, lead me to believe that something was happening without my knowledge so I turned around and ran out; ignoring his pleading calls and yells for me to comeback.

I ran and ran till I couldn't anymore as I reached the dungeons, entering the now empty common rooms, so empty not even the fireplace was lit as I walked slowly to my room opening the door.

I felt empty, broken, betrayed by the person who I loved more than anyone else even if my accusation of him cheating was most likely not true I knew he was hiding something.

The girls were asleep, a full bottle of alcohol still sat next to Ivy's bed and without thinking I grabbed it along with my dagger before walking into the bathroom.

I was to out of it to even think of locking the door as I opened the bottle and everything after was a blur as I found myself crying, covered in my own blood as it pooled around me.

I was back at square one.