Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// mentions of self harm and attempted suicide

I loved the mornings when we'd just lay in bed, with his head on my chest and his arms wrapped around me tightly as if he was afraid to loose me as I played with his pale hair.

The lazy mornings where we'd wake up late, his face buried in my neck and my face against the top of his head.

It was the only bit of peace the two of us got during these past few months. I'd press sleepy kisses to his forehead and run my fingers through his hair and down his back to comfort him.

and when he'd wake up, we'd just be there for the other, he'd kiss my neck softly before leaning his head back to look at me and softly say 'good morning'

Those were my favorite mornings.

My least favorite mornings was when I'd wake up alone and the sound of the blonde crying in the shower ran through our room.

When I'd half to use magic to unlock the door and force myself in the shower with him to hold him as he cried.

When I'd have to bandage his arm from him trying to scratch his dark mark away and when I have to comfort him and tell him his nightmares arent real.

Today happened to be that morning as I sat fully clothed at the opposite end of the tub as the blonde in the hot water because he wanted space but for me to stay.

His head rested on the wall, his eyes closed with his hand holding mine.

I let him take his time, to calm his nerves because I knew how he felt in this moment.

I always waited before asking him about his dream much like what he did for me.

When I felt his hand leave mine I felt my heart break slightly as I watched him remove his shirt and throw it to the side.

I sighed, making him look at me.

He kept his eyes on me for a moment before eventually moving between my legs and laying down with his head on my chest.

"baby" I mumbled, kissing the top of his head softly as he hummed in response "you're safe with me you know that right?" he nodded softly making me smile "I love you"

I felt him tilt his head and I saw his eyes, red and puffy, as they met mine.

He didn't say anything but he didn't need too as he sighed and I kissed his forehead again.

"I'll always be here, ferret" I told him and he smiled softly burying his face into my chest more.

and as the water grew colder we got out of the tub, drying off with magic but still changing into new clothes.

I stared at myself in the mirror, taking in the faded and fading scars from my past attempts to take my own life on my body as they remain unhidden, suddenly feeling insecure I closed my eyes letting a tear fall down my cheek.

"you're beautiful" I heard him say from behind me, his arms wrapping around me from behind "you're perfect" he kissed my cheek "don't doubt that"

I knew he knew what was wrong in that moment especially after I turned around to hug him properly.

We'd always be eachothers comfort, no matter what, even if we weren't having the best days.

If one of us needed the other then we'd drop everything and be there for them.

"you're beautiful even with your scars, okay?" He continued "they're your reminder that you survived" he whispers as I tilted my head back letting him bring his hand to my cheek.