Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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I couldn't remember the last time I left my bed for more than a few hours or when I didn't sit with my knees to my chest in the shower while fully clothed as Draco held me to calm my panic attacks down.

I couldn't remember the last time I didn't wake up sweating and screaming from nightmares, crying into his chest or pushing him away as I hid under the blankets with the only way to get me to calm down was for him to hide under with me and sit in silence as I cried into his chest.

I would never escape this reality, I was traumatized, my self esteem destroyed, it would only get easier to deal with and go on with my days.

It had only been two months since that night, Draco never left unless needed.

Right now I let him hold me as I read my book, it was a more calming night with Magnolia sleeping with her mother in the other room.

Draco would kiss the side of my head every once and a while, making sure to tell me he loved me without any hesitation or a second thought as I could hear the smile whenever he spoke.

Draco would leave for death eater meetings some evenings, leaving me with Ivy who did her best to make sure I was safe while also watching over Magnolia.

He would leave again tomorrow evening to attend a meeting which would leave me with my best friend and it made me feel bad as I closed my book slowly and turning to look at the blonde whos eyes looked heavy.

I don't think he was expecting me to lean in and press my lips against his softly judging by the way he jerked back but eventually leaning back in.

"You okay?" He asked softly while pulling away and I nodded seeing him smile softly "I'm okay with you, I'm safe" I whispered and he leaned back in to kiss my cheek "I'm so in love with you" he told me and I relaxed more, burying my face into him.

"so goddamn in love with everything about you" he mumbled as he pressed his mouth to my forehead placing a lingering kiss there causing me to smile, truly smile for the first time in weeks, maybe even months.

I leaned back and smiled brighter when I saw him, his eyes locked on me as they filled with nothing but pure admiration and I sighed.

"I missed your smile my love" he said with the hint of relief in his words as he let his head fall to the side, though his eyes were tired neither of us planned on sleeping.

"well because of you I found my smile" I told him as I turned on his lap to face him properly and throwing my arms around his neck when he smiled, resting his head on my arm.

He snuck his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him, allowing me to lay my chin on his chest and look up at him.

This was a rare moment, a night where I was completely calm, completely distracted by the blonde who had me wrapped around his finger completely, I was feeling what peace felt like even if it would be temporary.

Usually the night was full of him trying to calm me down as I had a panic attack but tonight for some reason it wasn't like that, instead I was completely calm.

Looking down at me Draco pressed a soft kiss to my forehead as a way to comfort me.

"Its almost Christmas" he whispered "I think given the circumstances it'll be good for us to still have that new years party, you know?" He said and I agreed because we all needed a little bit of a distraction in out life right now.

"Ivy and I were talking about it already while you were in the shower the other day" I mentioned as he brushed a strand of hair out of my eye.

"do you remember our first kiss?" I asked suddenly and a smile formed on his face, nodding he bit his bottom lip as if to keep himself from speaking his thoughts.

"You know that was my first kiss? I had never kissed anyone before you" I added, seeing his eyes meet mine as he sighed "I think you mentioned it, did I tell you it was my first too?" He said making me lean im till only a centimeter came between us.

"I love you ferret" I giggled pressing my lips against his, it was the first time I had said it first since my birthday and it felt good to finally say it especially all that hes done for me in the last few months.

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"You have a nice smile Iris" he reminded before closing the gap between us stealing my first kiss from me though I don't think I really minded in that exact moment.

His lips fit perfectly with mine and his hand finding my cheek causing me too smile into the kiss as every other thought in my mind left and it was only him that stayed now.

I felt warm inside as he leaned in more, deepening the kiss, I never thought about my first kiss or how it would happen but this, this was perfect to me.

It happened naturally, it wasn't forced or uncomfortable, it was like we had done this a thousand times.

Only a few seconds later did we finally break the kiss, smiles on both of our faces as we opened our eyes to meet eachothers gazes.

"You're a good kisser Malfoy" I told him confidently as I felt his hand leave my cheek and move down to my hip to pull me closer to him slightly, throwing me off guard and causing me to yelp.

"can say the same about you Fay" he tried to be serious, but neither of us could as we both broke into a fit of quiet laughter which somehow ended in my lips back on his.

I knew I liked him in that very moment, the very first moment he kissed me and I didn't want it to end, I knew that Ivy was right, that I had feelings for him.

and that they were growing with every second I was with him.

an hour later he walked me to my dorm room door, kissing me Goodnight and I fell asleep with a smile on my face thinking how I could get used to his tired goodnight kisses, his messy hair and his tired eyes.