Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// Self Harm, Suicide attempt.

I took a bubble bath fully clothed, to relax while Draco and my father got stuff ready for the new years party and Destiny locked herself into her room.

The water was hot and the mirrors were all fogged up by the steam of the hot water as I sat surrounded by mountains of bubbles.

Tears slowly fell down my cheek as I glanced over the knife sitting besides me on the table beside the tub and I reached out to grab it.

The handle was matte black with silver details, a present from my aunt after my mother died because she knew I would feel safer with something to defend myself with.

I held the dagger in one hand and stared at my wrist that had scars from that night left as a constant reminder like to taunt me.

I brought the dagger to one of the scars and dragged it across letting blood trickle down to the water below turning it a shade of bright pink.

I was numb, everything was numb but the minute the blade hit my skin I could feel, everything, anything, all my senses were back and I was alive.

The feeling of blood trickling down my arm and watching it fall into the water below gave me this sick sense of peace and comfort.

I dug the blade into my skin once again but this time deeper as goosebumps formed and a gasp left my lips where a smile formed.

The water got darker as I continued on without any thought.

Every scar had been replaced with open wounds and my arm covered with blood as I watched it turn the water and bubbles surrounding me a dark, deep red.

I sighed shakily and let the dagger slip out of my hand and hit the floor with a loud thud that could probably be heard from someone else in the house.

It didn't take long for Destiny to start banging on the bathroom door screaming for me to open the door but I was in such shock, so weak I couldn't get up.

"Alohomora"

I let my head fall over to the side, I felt myself grow weaker as more blood left my body, my eyes were heavy and my head fuzzy.

I heard Destiny scream, this would be the second time she had found me like this.

"Iris!" She leaped towards me as she grabbed a towel, wrapping me in it after pulling me out.

My head fell back, blood covered me and the floor as my vision slowly got blurry and my hearing muffled.

She was yelling, screaming even but I couldn't make out what it was she was saying.

"I'm sorry" I croaked but I wasn't sure she could hear me or understand me as she held my hand tightly.

"please just.. let me.. die" my words slurred together, my hearing came in and out but my eyesight stayed blurry, so blurry I couldn't make out anything.

It was like I was underwater at dusk when everything is dark blue and you can barely see.

I could hear my father, Destiny telling Draco to stay out, Ruby and Ivy were somewhere, they had just arrived I assumed because I could hear them, their voices that I missed so much.

Destiny wouldn't let me go, there was a panic, the smell of blood filled my senses and I could fully take everything im for a moment.

I needed him, I wanted him if I was going to die I wanted to be with him and I wanted the last thing I saw to be him.

"ferret"

I could barely see him as he came into view, his eyes swollen as he kneeled down next to me, then I felt pressure on my left arm as my head rested on Draco's lap after Destiny gave me to him.

He held my face as he looked down at me telling me that everything was going to be okay, to listen to his voice, look at him and that he wasn't going to go anywhere.

"Stay strong"

I could barely feel his thumb running circled under my eye but I knew he was especially when he leaned down kissing my forehead.

"Please don't leave me"

My heart shattered at how his voice cracked when he whispered, I kept my eyes on him, taking in how beautiful his eyes were even if I could barely focus on them.

He couldn't loose me and I couldn't loose him.

I never realized how his eyes glimmer naturally, I felt his hand squeeze mine and I smiled weakly.

The truth was I was scared, terrified actually but I wanted to be free from the constant pain.

A tear fell on my cheek, "I'm okay" I whispered so only he could hear me and he pushed my hair away from my eyes "I'm sorry" I apologized weakly.

It was all I could say I didn't have that much energy, I could barely speak properly, coughing I felt him tighten his hand around mine.

"Draco" I whispered and he nodded waiting for what it was I had to say.

"I... love... you"

Then my vision turned dark.