Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// mention of cutting

Draco and I ended up getting chewed out by Snape because the blonde fell asleep in my dorm room with me claiming that it was a danger to the other girls.

Which he wasn't and that was made clear by Ivy, Ruby and Pansy after Snape had pulled them into the room and told them to tell us how uncomfortable they felt at my reckless behavior.

So watching Snape basically twitch with irritation and anger as they told him how they basically gave him full permission to stay in our room was a sight to see.

And when Draco wrapped his arm around my shoulder as we left his office I heard what sounded like a ruler breaking in the professor's hand.

As soon as we left the green tinted room Ruby bursted out laughing and looked at Draco and I before eventually speaking up.

"Imagine if he heard what you two did in the shower" my face went red as I looked over at the red haired girl next to me who held a knowing smirk in her face "you two aren't good at hiding things you know?"

I threw my head back, letting it hit Draco's shoulder as I closed my eyes out of pure embarrassing "we didn't hear anything but when you both are passed out with wet hair and Iris is covered in hickeys-" I felt myself calm down a bit knowing they didn't hear us "kind of put two and two together"

I turned my head looking at the side of Dracos face as he held a small smile on his face telling me whatever he was going to say wasn't good at all for me.

But instead the blonde chuckled moving his arm down to my waist and rested his hand on my ass before smiling at me softly.

It was then that I realized how skinny he had gotten, his cheeks sunk in and his eyes had dark rings around them, he looked almost sick and thought he still looked handsome to me I was worried about his health.

I just didn't know what to do to help him because even with me he never asks for help, instead he stayed silent, hurt in silence and I always told me not to worry but I did anyway.

I didn't want my happiness to be so broken

His eyes were glassy as if he were about to cry but I knew he didn't want to because he told me a Malfoy can never appear weak infront of others.

But he'll cry infront of me.

As soon as we were alone he hugged me, crying into my hair as he held me and I knew deep down that he was slowly loosing his ability to even pretend like he was okay.

He was hurting so bad and all I could do to comfort him was hug him, show him I was there no matter what, tell him how I loved him and reminded him why I love him.

So I held him and laid down, brushing his hair and pressing soft kisses to his temple.

"you know what always make me feel better?" I asked and he shook his head, his eyes meeting mine as I rested my hand on his head with my fingers still tangled in his hair "talking about it, I'll listen"

I saw a small, hard to see smile form as he rolled onto his stomach and beginning his rant about how his father being in prison is causing his stress because now he's the man of the house, now he has to pay for his father's mistakes and be forced to kill the very man who watched us grow up.

He told me everything, how for days after he got his mark he tried to cut it away then thought of me and stopped, even that the only reason he's sane us because he can't leave me alone to face life because he knew I couldn't.

His entire life he never knew love, he knew it from his mother but he never saw love or the point of it, that was till now.

This was the transition topic to what he said to make me smile.

"I got warm inside when I saw you smile for the first time, thats when I knew for sure I was in love with you"

There was a small pause as he just stared at me, I brushed away his tear as it fell from his eye making him smile and kiss my wrist softly.

"Then that day at the quidditch match when you said you were mine, I was so happy—god I wanted to make you my girlfriend then and there" he told me as I ran my fingers down the side of his face and smiled waiting for him to continue.

"You do this thing in your sleep, you hug me tighter everytime I move and mumble for me to stay with you, it's adorable"

He told me he loved me and I said it back, he had forgotten about his breakdown as I did to when he kissed me softly over and over telling me how lucky he was to have me and how never in his life did he expect to be genuinely happy.

He was so gentle with me with his hands on my cheek and his body pressed against mine.

"You're such a little spoon sometimes" I told him, hearing him chuckle as he pressed more kisses to my lips "big spoons deserve love too"

I was so in love with him, perfect.

~~~

"Are you going home over break?"

It was a question that I never expected him to ask me, he always knew the answer, I always went home during break so why now would he ask.

with a soft voice I answered my eyes never leaving the sky "Yeah" the stars were beautiful at this time of night especially with the snow that fell in the surrounding area.

"Stay, with me" I tore my eyes from the sky to look at him, his eyes sad and our noses barely touching "I don't want to be alone" my heart broke at how sad he sounded.

I nodded, "I'll stay" a small smile found its way onto my lips as I pushed a peace of hair from his face "so you don't have to be alone, I'll stay"

I saw him smile before looking back up at the stars above us as I did the same.

"Thank you"

My eyes wandered the sky as I snuggled into the blonde even more to keep myself warm as the winter breeze hit me hard suddenly.

"Draco"

"Yeah?"

"I love you"

There was a silence that followed after what I said, he kissed my head and I could feel his smile, he sniffled and I knew he was crying.

I turned to wipe away his tears, his eyes soft and a small on his lips.

Happy tears