Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// mentions of suicide

like a jolt of energy, I was awake.

Eyes wide open, my heart beating faster then ever and I sat straight up, taking in a deep breath.

I heard Draco sigh with relief as I fell back down against the mattress and I caught a glimpse of him beside me.

He was slumped in his chair that he sat in, Ivy standing behind him with Magnolia to her chest and it was then I noticed the tears that had dried on his cheeks.

This exact scenario had became a little to,, familiar to me and Draco, I was unsure of why he stayed with me.

I didn't even notice Ivy's mother standing beside me.

I was to focused on the blonde who hesitated to hold my hand, the way his eyes held little life as they looked back at me even with the hint of relaxation.

"Iris" he spoke shakily and I felt my heart pounding in my chest as I saw Ivy and her mother leave the room from the corner of my eye "I thought I lost you" he whispered, I felt almost calm when thats what he said.

"I- I really thought I did" I could only imagine what he was feeling in this very moment especially when he laced his fingers with mine "are you feeling better" he wondered, changing the subject of his words as I stared at him.

"no?" he questioned before softening his expression and squeezing my hand making me relax and smile weakly "you don't have to answer I understand" he said and I remembered why I chose him.

I let out a breath and looked at the boy who made my heart ache as he tried his hardest not to cry "I can't loose you—if I did I don't know what I'd do" his voice cracked, the topic was once again on what had just happened.

I tugged his arm forward slightly to make him lean over me so he was close enough to hear me as I whispered a quiet apology.

Sitting back down his head fell into my chest for a second before he lifted it to look at me again.

"you died, you died when I found you—you.. you took your last breath and I-" he stopped, taking a deep breath and a tear rolled down his face "I forgot how badly it hurt to have you die in my arms and frankly I think it hurt worse this time"

his eyes stayed on my hand as he paused, my eyes finding the chain around his neck and I furrowed my eyebrows.

I reached my hand out to grab it, pulling it out from his teeshirt and I looked at him with sad eyes when I realized what it was.

"Your father- he gave it to me two days before he passed on, he said it was his fathers past down from—" I cut him off as he looked up at me locking onto my eyes.

"from my mothers adoptive dad, I know, it was Orginally my mothers biology fathers necklace but when he died it was left in his possession to give to whoever my mom ends up marrying in the end" I finished for him before smiling softly.

"or ends up falling in love with" I saw him bite back a smile as I dropped my hand into his letting him squeeze it softly "thats why he gave it to you" and he finally smiled because he knew, he knew despite me never actually telling him I'm in love with him, he just knew.

"So you're saying you're in love?" He teased and I felt my cheeks run red as I looked down smiling shyly "yeah.." I mumbled and I saw him lean in turning his head slightly "what was that? I didn't hear you"

"I said ye-" I was cut off when I looked up and felt his lips on mine suddenly and while it startled me, taking me off guard I kissed him back, a smile finding his lips before he pulled away, breaking the kiss.

"me too" he smiled softly and I leaned in again, pecking his lips softly before laying back down "you need to rest so I'm gonna-" he went to stand up but I whined, pulling him back "no stay—stay with me please" I begged quietly and he just smiled nodding mouthing an 'ok' before kissing my forehead.

We fell silent enjoying the other as I held his hand in mine, only the muffled sounds of Magnolia from downstairs occupied the air around us as my eyes found the ceiling.

He stood up suddenly, making his way around the bed and laying down next to me causing me to scoot closer and place my head on his chest, he needed to hold me close right now and I knew that.

He needed to know I was still there.

We were both overwhelmed and this was how we would calm eachother down in our times of need.

Right now was more of a time of need then anything else, despite the moment we just had we both were numb after what I had almost done and I was so conflicted over what I had actually wanted.

I didn't want to leave him, but I didn't want to breathe anymore.

So as I closed my eyes, I held my breath without him realizing it and as I reached 15 seconds he suddenly spoke up breaking the silence and I knew exactly what it was I wanted.

"I love you"

I looked back at him, smiling as tears flower out of my eyes and despite the confused look in his eyes he smiled, I wanted him, only him for the rest of my life.

because it was him who made it easier to get up, even if it still hurt to breathe and exist, he made it easier for me.

he was my savior, my smile and my light in the dark.