Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// self harm, attempted suicide and mentions of rape / torture

I had been left alone, trusted on my own upstairs and I knew it was time, it was my time.

I couldn't deal with it anymore, the constant pain of feeling like all I was to others was a punching bag and nothing else.

a letter sat on the nightstand for Draco, my goodbye to the boy who loved me and in that letter I gave him my heart, my whole soul and my final wishes.

my back now laid against the cold tub, my arms covered with cuts and blood as it tainted the slowly rising water, Draco was put incharge of Magnolia while Ivy went to take a walk and her mother made food in the kitchen.

With my dagger in my hand I would continue, covering myself in open wounds to try—try to ruin myself because every time I closed my eyes I saw them.

I saw all three of them as they tore me apart of the inside, as they laughed at my pain as I bleed out, screamed for them to stop only to feed there satisfaction.

"Be a good girl" he hissed as the memory of my 7 year old self cried and screamed under the man who held me down.

I closed my eyes harder trying to forget.

"you're so unloveable—a fucking whore, disgusting" I couldn't cry anymore, I couldn't feel. I wanted to scream but the memories kept flooding my mind, I couldn't escape them.

They'd haunt me in my last moments.

"good girl, scream" I screamed without even realizing it, I screamed trying to escape the memories as I opened my eyes and began cutting deeper and deeper.

as everything went numb I heard my name being called from downstairs, I heard his voice but I couldn't process it anymore.

I was falling in and out of consciousness I could barely hear Magnolia crying, I could barely hear Draco screaming for me as he ran through the house.

I was in complete pain, my entire body was sore and my dagger now laid beside the tub where the water overflowed onto the floor.

I was going to die tonight, I was going to end the pain I felt everytime I got up and I was going to leave everything behind, everything.

I would die in a rub full of bloody water, alone.

This is what I wanted wasnt it?

to stop breathing because all I was and all I would ever be was a waste of space, a burden to everyone around me.

So as my dagger slid out of my hand and I stared up at the ceiling I felt a tear fall from my face because it was then that I thought of what I was doing.

All that I would miss. Every moment.

I would never get to see Magnolia grow up, see Draco hold our child for the first time, to get married to the blonde, watch Ivy spend the rest of her life with the man who loves her most or the war- the war that had been going on for to long already finally end.

Innocent people were being killed everyday, I'd be just a number in the history books, just a number nothing more maybe a name if I'm lucky.

I'd be forgotten about, Draco would find someone new and everyone would forget I was ever a person.

He'd forget about us, our first kiss, our i love you's, our first time, our fights, our laughs, us, he'd forget we were even thing.

He would forget about me, how I had love'd him so much to risk myself for him, I would be nothing but a forgotten memory to him, he'd forget.

I remember apologizing to Draco, telling him I loved him one last time in my head as everything around me went black and I heard the sounds of someone banging on the door.

I heard screams of my name, pleads for me to open the door.

"Its in the nightstand! The door is locked find it before I break the fucking door down Ivy!"

Slowly my hearing went out, a ringing taking in its place and a pair of arms found themself wrapped around me.

The last thing I heard was Draco's voice, "fuck-no! Iris no!" My heart broke for him, I was stuck between regretting what I had done and being happy I would finally escape pain.

Then just like I had taken my first 17 years ago, I would be taking my final one today, in the arms of the boy I loved the most.

I was finally free.

I could finally feel peace.

but still I was scared.

"Iris... please comeback"

"I love you"