Her Eyes || Draco Malfoy

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TW// mention of rape

"Nervous?" spoke Blaise as he approached me while I was leaned over a trashcan after having thrown up for the 3rd time that day.

His hand landed on my back, I refused to look over at the boy as I felt I was about to throw up again as he rubbed my back and a cup came into view.

I grabbed it quickly and brought it to my lips before downing it feeling myself relax before finally looking at him "yeah, what gave that away" I mumbled with a hint of amusement in my voice.

He laughed but when he lifted his hand to push my hair out of my face I beat him to it, watching his expression fall to one of concern as he pulled his hand back letting it fall to his side.

This was the first time since my birthday that I was left alone with Blaise, he knew that I knew about his feelings for me which seemed to have made the silence between us more awkward than comfortable.

We never spoke of it and frankly I've been kind if avoiding him, anytime in potions we were told to pick partners I'd go immediately to Draco and avoid conversation with Blaise.

So now I'm left alone with him, I feel trapped and guilty for a reason I wasn't fully sure of myself as I looked away towards the door.

"Draco threw up before his first game too, if that makes you feel better"

I didn't say much instead I smiled to myself and looked back at Blaise "your eyes tell me you want me to leave" he said as I broke eye contact again, he sounded heartbroken almost, like nothing he could say would make me want him to stay.

"why are you avoiding me?"

The question hit me in the chest hard causing tears to fill my eyes as I closed them "answer my question Iris" he was stern not realizing that I was on the verge of tears when I answered.

"you expect me to act like everything is normal when you admited infront of me that you are in love with me? you expect me to pretend like that didn't happen? you looked right at me and confessed basically!"

I was livid at the though that he could think everything could be normal now, I wanted to scream and cry, Draco didn't know this, he didn't know his best friend was in love with me.

and honestly it was better that way.

"What do you want me to do Blaise. I'm dating your best friend- I am in love with him and I don't mean to hurt your feelings but you can't just expect me to pretend everything is normal when its not— not anymore you're in love with your best friends girlfriend"

Blaise stepped back holding his hands up as a surrendering gesture, hurt filling his eyes.

"Iris-"

"No- no just go I'll see you at the match"

He looked hurt, his eyes filled with regret as he backed out of the room slowly leaving me all alone once again as I leaned over the garbage once again.

I had thrown up so much I passed out in the middle of the common room from dehydration, I only found this out after I had woken up in the hospital wing.

"You'll be safe to play in today's match as long as you drink enough fluids and eat light" I nodded at Madam Pomfrey's words because I felt relaxed now that I knew I wouldn't force slytherin to forfeit the match.

"I do have some questions I would like you to answer, they're just some normal check up questions I ask all the girls your age" she started and I nodded as she sat down at my feet.

The room was empty due to Draco leaving on Madam Ponfrey's orders.

"Are you sexually active?"

I froze up at her question nodding slowly, wondering to myself why she would be wondering about my sex life.

"Sorry, I just noticed the bruises on your neck, Ivy came in a few hours ago with similar bruises the other day"

I froze and I nodded, confused on if i heard her right.

"I'm sorry did you say Ivy?" I asked, not sure if I should be worried since it'd been a few days since the two of us had spoken and when I had seen her she seemed off.

Madam Pomfrey nodded before continuing "yes she came in with bruises all up her neck, she looked like she had been crying" I dismissed myself, I had to look for her.

~~~trigger warning below~~~

The match started soon and when I saw Ivy, huddled in the corner of the dorm room crying I knew something was up.

And judging by how she flinched when I raised my arm to hug her I knew exactly what happened.

"I love you Ivy" I whispered as I pulled her close letting her cry into my chest as I rubbed her back "you can tell me anything you know that" I continued as she tilted her head back to look at me.

I pushed her hair out of her face and she hesitated, looking up at me with a tear threatening her left eye "you don't have to tell m-"

"I was raped" she confessed before a long silence surrounded us and I wiped away a tear that had fallen from her eye.

"It happened a week ago, I was on a study date with his guy and he- fuck" I struggled with myself to not breakdown crying as I realized the lack of life in her eyes, recognizing the hesitation to get close to anyone as she laid her head onto my chest.

I wasn't thinking, I just said it.

"So was I, on my 7th birthday"

She sat up straight, looking at me with eyes full of shock "wait what?!," her voice was weak, genuinely concern covered her face as she obversed my face "but Draco and you are- I thought he-"

"He didn't- we are...active" I felt awkward sharing that part of our relationship with someone else but Ivy knew this already "but it's because I trust him- he knows what happened to me"

She listened carefully to every word I said, reminding me of that day at the lake with Draco when we first started talking.

"I know how you feel Ivy and I'm here if you need me, you can trust me"

She didn't know what to say so instead she leaped forward and hugged me tightly, crying because she knew now that she wasn't alone, she never was.

"Thank you"