{ Dreamshade }

•Chapter 46•

"Y/n," Pan said. He cups her cheeks in his hands. "You're alive." He whispered. Y/n shook her head slightly. "It's alright, my love. You're safe now." He assured her. Y/n raised her hands, putting them over his. She carefully started to push them away. "Please, don't touch me." She said. Pan stood there, shocked, by the words that came out of her mouth. He let out an awkward chuckle. "Wha-what are you saying?" He asked her. Y/n pulled her head out of his hands. "Don't think I have forgotten. You, my heart, everything." She tells him. Pan puts one of his hands on her knees. "Y/n," Pan started. The Lost Girl ignored her boyfriend. She pushed his hands off her knees again. "I want to get out of here." She said. She turned her body so her feet would be above the ground. "Darling, don't-" Pan started. The Lost Girl hopped off, landing on the cold, hard floor. She took one step and her legs felt weak. Pan caught her before her knees could hit the ground. "You can't walk. You've been asleep for days now." Pan tells her. Y/n started to push him away. "Get off me." She replied. Deep down, all she wanted was his touch on her skin. His warmth. But didn't trust him. He took her heart. "Y/n, you can't walk. Let me help you." Pan said. Y/n pushed his arms away. She put her hands on a rock to stabilize herself. She glared at the boy in front of her. "Help me? Like you helped me by keeping me away from everyone that ever cared for me?" She asked him. The demon looked down at his feet before he looked up again. "You're right. You're absolutely right." Pan tells her, "I was selfish. I was a monster, a villain." He added. Pan stepped closer to her. "I was so busy keeping you to myself, I never thought about your happiness. I have endangered you countless times. I made you do terrible things," He continued, "You have no idea how much I regret that. I regret everything." He tells her. Y/n just looked at him. Pan saw small tears forming in her eyes. "If I could turn back time, I would." He said, "You are the only thing I care about, Y/n. I love you." He tells her. She started to shake her head. "No, you don't." She said. Pan puts his hand on her cheek. "I do. With all I have." He whispered. 

Pan pulled her closer, pressing their foreheads against each other. Y/n closed her eyes. A small tear rolled down her cheek. "I can't say it." She whispered back. Pan let out a quiet sigh. "You don't have to." Pan tells her, "I want you to have your happy ending." He added. Y/n opened her eyes, looking at him. "We spoke of a happy ending... together. But this is about you." He tells her, "Your happy ending." He continued. Y/n's eyes traveled to Killian who stood behind them. She looked back at the boy in front of her. "Pan-" She started. The demon boy closed his eyes and brushed his nose against hers. His eyes fluttered open again. "It's your choice." He whispered. He took a step back, giving her some room. Y/n looked at Killian and Neal. She turned to look at Pan. She had never seen him this vulnerable. She took little steps towards him. She almost stumbled over her own feet. Pan caught her once again. "Pan, I-" She let out a sigh, "I'm sorry." She tells him. Pan held her hands gently in his. "I can't stay." She added. Pan shook his head slightly. "You can. We can. I will regain your trust. Please, Y/n, I-" He started. "I will never forget you. Even if I wanted to." She said quietly. Pan tried to protest, but Y/n pulled herself out of his grasp. She walked over to Henry. "Let's go back to Storybrooke," Y/n tells him. The young boy nodded, grabbing her hand.  Y/n looked at Pan over her shoulder. "Goodbye, Peter." She tells him. Pan was slowly breaking on the inside. "Stay with me." He whispered. Y/n slowly made her way over to Killian, cutting out Pan's voice. She didn't want to go. She loved Pan with all she had, but this was for her own good. The pirate noticed her heart slowly breaking. He wrapped his arms around the young girl. Neal joined in as well. Henry walked over to his mother and hugged her tightly. Y/n pulled away from the embrace. She looked over to Regina. She was giving the Lost Boy a deadly glare. Y/n holds up her hand. "Regina," She started. The Evil Queen looked at the young girl. "Don't hurt him." She tells her.

Pan watched as the adults made their way out of Skull Rock. Y/n didn't even look at him as they left. Pan turned to the hourglass which had stopped a while ago. Y/n's head popped up from the water. "You're annoying," Felix tells her. Y/n let out a giggle. "Well, you should've joined me then." She tells him. Felix got out of the water, clothes soaking wet. Baelfire laughed at the blonde second in command. Y/n laughed at him. "I'm sorry, Felix." She apologized. Felix let out a chuckle. "It's alright." He assured her. That's when a whistle sounded. Everyone glanced up at the sound. Y/n had sneaked out of the camp and Pan had sent out a search group to get her back. She went to the lake to swim. When the Lost Boys found her, some of the boys joined her, even if some of them couldn't swim. If they couldn't, then she would teach them. Felix disappeared into the jungle. Y/n looked at Baelfire. "What do you think is happening?" He asked her. Y/n shrugged. "I don't know." She replied. Felix soon returned to the group. His eyes were focused on Y/n. "He wants you." He tells her. The Lost Boys groaned loudly. Y/n let out a chuckle. "I'll be right back." She tells them. She got out of the lake, in only her underwear. She grabbed her towel and wrapped it around her shoulders. "Is he angry?" Y/n asked Felix. He shook his head in response. Y/n walked off into the jungle. Pan was waiting for her by a tree. "Hey, Pan, what's up?" She asked him. The demon glanced up at her. His green eyes scanned every curve of her body. He quickly cleared his throat, brushing it off. "I thought I told you to stay at the camp." He tells her. "I thought we could do whatever we wanted here." She replied. Pan didn't know whether to be proud or annoyed. "I wanted to keep you safe." he tells her, "And covered up." He whispered. Y/n rolls her eyes at him. "What's the big deal? I wanted to go swimming." She tells him. "They are there with you," Pan said quietly. "That's what this is about?" Y/n chuckled. "You don't know what goes through their minds when they see you like this. I do." Pan tells her. "Because it's what you're thinking?" She asked him with a smirk. Pan had a grin on his face and a small blush. Y/n stepped closer to him. "Maybe you and I should go swimming. Just us." She whispered in his ear. Pan puts his hand on her lower back and smirks at her. "Can I go back?" She asked him sweetly. Pan's smirk faded. "To get your clothes, yes," Pan tells her. 

Y/n glanced over her shoulder. The island she had lived on for so many years. Her gut was telling her to go back. "Are you alright?" Neal called out to her, snapping her out of her thoughts. "Yeah." She assured him, "I never thought I would say goodbye to this place." She tells him. Neal put his arm around her shoulder. "It's gonna be okay. It will just take some time for you to adjust." He replied. Y/n looked at her friend. "I guess so." She said. Her eyes moved across the island. "You know, when I first came here, I wanted nothing more but to get off the island. I was so scared." She started, "And now, after all those years, I'm escaping, and my gut is telling me it's wrong." She continued. Neal gently rubbed her back. "Neverland was so magical. A place where new dreams were born. But my oldest is finally coming true. To have a family." She said quietly. "And that's great, right?" Neal smiled at her. Y/n nodded with a weak smile planted on her lips. "I just thought all those years that that dream had already come true... and it turned out to be a lie." She replied sadly. She looked up at him. "You felt like a prisoner, I did too when I first arrived, but somehow it turned into my home." She tells him. Neal squeezed her hand gently. "Storybrooke will be your new home. We'll figure it out." He assured her. Y/n smiled at him. Neal pulled her into a hug. "Thanks, Bae." She whispered. Neal gently stroked her hair as they hugged. "Any time," he tells her. Neal pulled away from their hug. He smiled at her again before he walked off. As he did, Y/n's eyes fell on Killian. He was smiling at her as well. Y/n smiled at him. "Take us home, captain." She said with a grin. "Of course, my lady. Your wish is my command." He tells her. Y/n turned to look at the island as they sailed off. "Bye, guys." She whispered, "Goodbye, Peter." 

Pan slowly walked into the camp. Everyone stopped talking and glanced up at him. The demon boy glanced around.  "Don't you have work to do?!" He yelled at them. All of the boys went back to work, trying not to make eye contact with Pan. The leader of the Lost Boys walked through the camp, wanting to go to his thinking tree. Felix got up and walked after her. When they were deep in the jungle, Pan suddenly stopped his pace. "Y/n is gone," Pan spoke up. The blonde boy's eyes widened. "It didn't work?" Felix asked. "Oh, it worked," Pan tells. He turned around to look at him. "She's alive." he informs, "She's aboard Hook's ship. They're taking her back to Storybrooke." He added. Felix swung his weapon over his shoulder. "We have to get her!" Felix said. Pan shook his head. "There is no need for that. I let her go." He said. Felix glared at him. "You let her go?" He asked, not believing him. "She hates me, Felix." Pan tells him, "I gave her a choice... and she chose them." He continued. Felix scratched the back of his neck, lowering his face slightly. "I can't blame her." He added. Felix looked at Pan again. "So you just let her go?" He asked. Pan nodded sadly. "She didn't even say goodbye," Felix said quietly. "I need to be alone. You're in charge until I get back." Pan tells him. Felix nodded in response. He turned around to walk away when Pan called out his name. "I'm sorry I said those things. You're a good friend, Felix." He tells him. Felix smiled weakly at him and gave him a slight nod. Pan then walked off towards his tree. He closed his eyes slowly. All the thoughts of her started to run through his head. He slams his fist against the tree harshly. "I love you." He whispered. The sound was so quiet, he was sure no one could head it. "I love you too." He heard behind him. He opened his eyes and turned around.A soaking wet Y/n was standing right in front of him. "You asked me to stay, I'm staying." She tells him.