Unsuccessful

Whispers of my bleeding Heart...💔

Hardin's Point of View...

For the past 15 minutes, I can hear my phone alarm going on and off on my nightstand, a habit of putting my alarm before going to bed that I got from my beautiful wife Tessa.

I tap on my phone to finally turn off my alarm for the day. One more day without my wife. Even if this is not the longest I spend away from Tessa, how can I forget when she made me sleep without her for a week before our marriage. Still living in this gigantic penthouse alone after marriage feels odd and out of place.

I know she has been calling me, messaging me for the past 4 days and I haven't responded to her once. I am letting my ego get in between us and now I don't know if it's my ego or my guilt that is keeping me away from my wife.

I know she is in New York but I am not mad at her that she left me after our argument. I am scared that she will run into my biggest fear. Renne. I don't want Tessa to see her. Renne is bad news. I haven't yet thought about her proposal. I have to, I know that. When it comes to Patience, Renne lacks in that department. I am even surprised she hasn't called me yet.

As per Renne, if we continue our sleeping arrangement, she will remain quiet about our past, about Tedd, and most importantly about Tessa's disability to conceive. I don't care if Tessa cannot give me our child, I love her because of her and not because of whether or not she can get pregnant. There are other ways and we will try every single way to experience the beautiful notion of parenthood. But if the news gets out in the media, I will lose my inheritance. One of the clauses as per my father's will was to have a child with my wife. It didn't state How? But when it comes to legalities, I know the government fund will do anything to claim our property. I cannot let that happen. The Scott Business Group might have been started by my father but for the last 7 years, I have given my all to this business and I will never let it slip away.

I leave my bedroom to start my day. The same routine. I shower, I get ready for my office, I eat my breakfast cooked by Sylvia, my cook, who I asked to come back to work since Tessa is not home and then I go to the office. At the office, it's the same. Client Meetings, Staff Meetings, Presentations, and me completing file works. It feels like I am living my life like a clock. It starts at 6 in the morning and it ends at 10 in the night with me stripping off my work clothes to finally get some sleep.

I do miss Tessa, more than ever. Now that we are married I thought of us spending every single minute together. With her being gone, I do feel like I am lost. I am just living my life because I have to. I have my responsibilities towards my business and that's the only motivation I have these days that kept me going.

I walk back into my bedroom, strip off my towel and walk naked to my wardrobe. Tessa is not even here to enjoy the show. It's like everything I do, I do it for her. I decide my outfit for the day and quickly change into it. While I stand in front of my mirror, adjusting my shirt, my phone begins to ring. I sprint towards my nightstand hoping Tessa might be calling me. I will pick it up this time if it's her. But the moment I see my caller ID, disappointment floods through my body, it's Maine, my new Secretary since Coley resigned. I pick up my phone and put her on speaker.

"Hello Sir, Good Morning. How are you today?"

I roll my eyes because of her formalities. She sounds sweet and nice but she is not. If it's not because of her merits, I might have made her resign by now. The moment the rumor of Tessa not joining our organization back flooded the grapevine network at my office, Maine thought it would be appropriate to flirt with me. I have to shove my engagement band on her face twice, to silently ask her to fuck off last week, yet she cannot understand the signals.

"What is it Maine, Just cut to the point?"

I ask her, moving away from my phone and finishing off my look with my blazer.