Unsuccessful

A New Day...A New Hope..❤️

Tessa's Point of View...

As soft as the raindrop,
As cold as the snow,
Melt within a second,
As gentle as the wind blows

High above the Earth,
A New sound takeover,
As the gentle wind blows,
The Dull Cloud disappears,
As lovely as the life it rises

As gentle as a dove it rises,
A new sun is born,
New earth has been created,
New life has been made,
A new day has started counting
As the clock ticks!tick!tick!
Like a melody, the new Sun rises.

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9 Months Later...

Hardin,

How are you? God, I miss you so much. I miss your touch, your soft lips on my skin. I know the way I have started this entry, you may think I am horny, well can you blame me, I am sitting in my room, 9 months pregnant with our babies and it's been 9 months since I got to feel your touch on my naked skin, so, blame me all you want, I am horny for my husband.

God, I don't know how to write this. Any day now, I might go into labor. We will have our kids, born like a new day, like a new beginning. Yes, for me it will be the beginning of my motherhood, a new life. I began a new life here in Germany without you 9 months ago and now 9 months later, I will start a new life as a mother, mother to our kids.

I wish you would have been with me, by my side while I deliver our daughters. Not a single day goes by when I don't think about you when I don't miss you. I have been writing these entries every single day since I left Washington. One day, I hope you will read these entries and will know my love for you never faded. People say distance makes your heart go fonder for the person you love, well I never believed that now I do. My love for you is even stronger than it was before.

Matthew grounded me and locked me in my bedroom the day I hit 7 months. He was strict when it came to me moving around. Even in our apartment, he restricted me to the places I can go. Now, I sit in my bedroom while he cooks for us, does dishes, does laundry, everything. I feel useless, sitting on my bed all locked up.

Matthew has been a great support system for me. I don't know how I would have survived the past 9 months without him. As a friend. Don't worry, no matter how horny I am, I will never cheat on you, or Matthew touching me romantically will never happen. Only you are the one who gets to be with me intimately, no one else.

Well, our babies have been doing great. Both of them are healthy. Don't worry, I kept myself on a healthy diet, taking good care of myself with our babies, plus Matthew was there like a strict jailor, he kept me in check with my medicines, my diet, everything.

The doctor says I will have a normal delivery. It will be painful as I will be delivering not one, but two babies. Matthew thought I should go with surgery but I wanted to deliver our babies in a normal way. It will be tough but I will survive. I can bear that much pain for our babies, I guess.

Enough of me, with my sad ramblings. How are you? What are you up to these days? Do you miss me as I miss you? How is your mom, Lilly? I miss her a lot. Maybe one day when I come back to Washington with our kids, I will see her and will apologize to her for leaving everything so abruptly.

We will see. Well, now I am tired. I will take a nap and then it will be my medicine time. I will see you tomorrow, my love.

Your love,
Tessa.

Hardin's Point of View...

I open my eyes as the morning sunlight braces my face. God, I hate waking up so early. Living like a nomad is not an easy job.