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cry? should i scream for help? should i be happy? what are these emotions....? i cant control them any longer, will my inner demon take over and posses over everyone i love? should i be scared? should i try to find help, but there is none in site no matter how far and wide i look. will i always be like this? oh, so your just gonna leave me like this? haha, well she doesn't know my secret...one day i will rule over everyone i love. and you may ask, why? "why are you doing this lia!?" i will reply with " idk felt cute might stop destroying the whole world later, lol." then when you receive that i will crawl up everyones eye balls, and shove a knife down their throat.

stop...every time someone takes a screenshot of chat... i becum more angry. i can't live like this anymore..... should i let my inner demons come out? or am i overreacting....? i hate when people do this...i cant control it anymore....my i-inner demons.....their cumming out! how do i control them..? what do i say? how do i escape from this reality? i just wanna be 5 years old again and not know anything and be happy. please.... its all i ask for... what has this world becum i cant take it. June 21st 2029... that's when everything will end... all the world will cum to peace.... no more fighting. just, silence, just silence. 

cry? should i scream for help? should i be happy? what are these emotions....? i cant control them any longer, will my inner demon take over and posses over everyone i love? should i be scared? should i try to find help, but there is none in site no matter how far and wide i look. will i always be like this? oh, so your just gonna leave me like this? haha, well she doesn't know my secret...one day i will rule over everyone i love. and you may ask, why? "why are you doing this lia!?" i will reply with " idk felt cute might stop destroying the whole world later, lol." then when you receive that i will crawl up everyones eye balls, and shove a knife down their throat.

stop...every time someone takes a screenshot of chat... i becum more angry. i can't live like this anymore..... should i let my inner demons come out? or am i overreacting....? i hate when people do this...i cant control it anymore....my i-inner demons.....their cumming out! how do i control them..? what do i say? how do i escape from this reality? i just wanna be 5 years old again and not know anything and be happy. please.... its all i ask for... what has this world becum i cant take it. June 21st 2029... that's when everything will end... all the world will cum to peace.... no more fighting. just, silence, just silence. 

s-s-s-stop screenshot! its making me mad..... i cant take this anymore. im going to kill her.... "when?" you may ask...."no" is what i will reply with...no one knows the truth. i have to hunt for it....all those times everyone thought i was dumb....they will be punished i will stick a knife in their throat and watch them fucking bleed...... sorry! my demons got to me for a second!! xD anyways i cant take it anymore.....all these people are getting in my nerves..... i cant fucking take it. i hate people all i think when i hear them is " SHUT THE FUCK UP" repeating in my head... " PLEASE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP" resisting to fucking punch them until they die...i cant take it anymore...help....please....their cumming for me.... i know to much.....

please read it. im actually going fucking insane. i cant do it anymore... the people in the after life would be much more appealing to talk about. i cant fucking do it. i want to quit these voices, the shadows... how do i stop them from following me? are they following me? how do i fucking know anymore..... how do i know whats real? and what is fake? how do i know

wow. people only care about fucking spelling nowadays? haha!!! FUCK YOU. now i feel like im fucking alex 2.0 maybe even someone who has demon problems like me. but what would i know? "im just a kid" right? or am i actually just quiet and dont like to talk to people.... because i fucking hate this cruel world... how do people enjoy it? life fucking sucks... at least me demon gave me a coping skill... at least my demons can be nice sometimes.......right? or am i fucking going insane? how am i like this? what happened to the sweet little girl they use to know? why cant i be nice again..? please. the voices and the shadows are taking over me. none of these people fucking understand me. they dont know whats it like to be fucking insane....... how even am i insane? wait..am i insane? please im begging for help. what is going on. is it my mind playing tricks on me? is it real? i dont know what to believe anymore. i hear so many fucking lies. " your hearing stuff" " girl are you high again" STOP IT. saying that stuff makes me more angry. one day ill show those people how crazy i really am. i fucking hate the world. ill let my crazy fucking demons take over me. are the demons my friends? are they my enemies......? am i the demon? i cant control my thoughts anymore. its becoming a problem. i cant do this. thats it. the fucking voices grow louder. the laughing. the uncontrollable feeling of someone watching me. is someone watching me? or is it just in my head like everyone said it is? AM I FUCKING INSANE?

the demons are whispering. i feel like they can hear my thoughts..is it possible they hear? how do i escape their laughs? the laughs is all i hear....laughing,laughing,LAUGHING. IM GOING FUCKING INSANE. is it possible i am my own demon? and i my own shadows? am i the voice i hear well going to bed....? am i then shadow in the corner of the room? and i the one saying all this stuff to myself? how do i escape myself? am i manipulating myself? or are other people manipulating me? " YOUR NOT FUCKING CRAZY, LIA! STOP SAYING YOU ARE. YOUR SCARING YOUR BROTHER." ugh. all my mother cares about is my fucking brother. oh no. why is this happening....my demons. oh lord please save me. i couldn't kill my mom and brother could i? or maybe i should just all go out and say " fuck it. " NO. NO. NO. NOW IM ARGUING WITH MYSELF. I CANT DO THIS. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? AM I INSANE? DO I NEED HELP? maybe...maybe its just me watching to many horror movies! yeah...thats why. NO ITS FUCKING NOT LIA STOP LYING. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. THE VOICES AND DEMONS ARE GETTING CLOSER AND LOUDER. WILL I DIE? what's that ticking noise? what is it..please give me a sign lord. i thought god said everything will be over and the world will come to an end. please. or was that also a fucking lie? im gonna do it. the voices are getting to me. " do it" they chant. im ripping out my ears and my eyes are bleeding. please. am i imagining all of this?