Algebra and irish;) (student/teacher)

Chapter 66

Chapter 66------------------------------------------------------------------------Alex couldn't breathe. Her breathes were short and choppy. Her vision blurred by tears. With every beat of her heart the more it hurt. She felt a physical pain deep in her chest.

"ow... Oh my gosh ow" she moaned as she rubbed her free hand over her heart.

She kept gasping for air as she dashed her tears away. She should slow down but she wasn't thinking. Her foot kept getting heavier on the gas pedal. When she pulled in her drive way she recognized Luke's jeep. She turned her car off and laid her head against the steering wheel allowing the tears to flow silently down her face.

"this shouldn't hurt anymore" she whispered to herself.

"what's wrong with me? Breaking bones might have hurt less"

Alex raised up and flipped down the visor to check her appearance. She looked awful. Her face had tear tracks. Her mascara smeared and watery. Her hair was a mess since she'd ran her hands through it numerous times and her nose and eyes were red.

Alex wiped her face and got out of the car. She didn't know what to tell Luke. She shouldn't be crying. She shouldn't even be upset. She knew what was going to happen tonight. She knew he didn't love her so why was she upset?

She walked on in since Luke had already used his key to unlock the door.

He was sitting on the couch waiting on her.

"how'd it go lass?"

Alex bit her lip and looked down

"Alex?"

She pressed her lips together and looked up at him.

"I don't know" she whispered

"you still love him." he stated simply

Alex shook her head.

"It's ok lass"

"no it's not okay! How Is it okay that I still have feelings for my ex?"

Luke looked away from her but she could see his the muscle ticking in his jaw.

"you think I want this? You think I like the idea of you still feeling something for him?"

"I don't know what to tell you Luke. You chose damaged goods." she said trying to brush past him.

"see that's what pisses me off" he said grabbing her arm and pushing her against the nearest wall.

"you're not damaged.. You are hurt"

"what's the difference?" Alex yelled

"you really want someone who still have feelings for their ex? You want someone who hates themselves?"

"the difference is I want you!" he yelled getting in her face. This was the first time she has seen him truly angry

"you don't deserve this! You deserve a stable relationship! You deserve a woman who's normal! Not a teenager who has contemplated suicide for the last two years!"

"are you trying to scare me?! Do you want me to walk away?!"

"if that's what you want leave! The door is right there. I'm not stopping you" she shoved past him and stormed into her room slamming the door. After a while she heard the front door slam and she burst into tears.

"they always walk away" she murmured to herself.

She stripped down and climbed into bed preparing herself for a good cry. She buried her face in her pillow and let it soak up her tears until she drifted into blissful unconsciousness.

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Alex woke during the night because her body was being pulled. She jerked awake and let out a strangled cry.

"calm down love" Luke whispered sleepily.

How long had he been here? Didn't he leave?

"I thought you left" Alex said voicing her thoughts.

"I took Rambo for a walk. I was only gone about twenty minuets."

She turned around so she could face him.

"I thought you left" she said again.

"I'm not walking away Alex. That's not they kind of relationship we have here is it? The kind where one of us would just throw it all away?" Alex knew the question in his voice. He was asking if she was going to leave him.

"I love you Luke" she stated simply.

That seemed to relax him.

"then stop thinking I'm going to walk away. I'm not going anywhere. I understand you have feelings for him. He was your first love. But I plan to be your last so you have to stop shutting me out. You have to trust me."

"I'm trying"

"I know. Come here"

He hauled her closer to him for a passionate kiss.

"how do I make you feel? How does this make you feel?"

"Like I'm where I belong.... Like I'm finally home."

"then stop doubting me" he growled and tugged her face Back to his for another kiss. They made love slowly and sweetly and eventually fell asleep in each others arms.