Algebra and irish;) (student/teacher)

Chapter 21 (happy birthday)

Chapter 21-------------------------------Alex gasped against his lips and started to pull away. But Luke laid a gentle hand on the back of her neck easing her forward into his lips.

She hadn't kissed anyone since Lee and was starting to over think and panic. What if she was bad at kissing? She hadn't kissed in so long... What if he didn't like it. Or she had gotten worse. Luke started to pull back which only confirmed alex's fears.. She wasn't good at this. She was pathetic. He pulled away and leaned his forehead on hers.

"I- I'm sorry lass I didn't mean for that to happen."

Alex closed her eyes tightly and leaned back against the seat. Why had she thought anyone could ever like her. No one wants a broken toy.

"lass" he sighed laying his hand on her cheek only to have her flinch away. Tears were threatening the backs of her eyelids but she wouldn't let him see that.

" you can leave now I need to go"

"what about our tutoring session"

Alex gave a watery laugh.

" I don't think I'll be needing your assistance anymore."

" can't- cant we just pretend this never happened"

That sentence hurt worse than Alex thought it would.

"please leave" she begged in a small voice.

Luke gave a defeated look and climbed out of the car. She quickly got to the other side and stomped the gas headed for home-------------------------------------- Alex skipped the next day because it was her birthday. All she wanted was to stay home and relax. Or atleast that's what she told everyone else. She knew the real reason... She didn't want to see luke so soon. She had been looking into Internet classes only to find in disappointment they were all full. She could only do her homework on them. She desperately wanted to skip the rest of the week until the wedding but she knew she couldn't do that. It would cause to much commotion And questions between her friends and family.

Her family had called and sent cards and money which she was happy about. She needed all she could get for her trip to Florida for Kristin's wedding. Jordan came over to try and get her outta the house but finally gave up when Alex pulled the birthday card on her. Her thoughts were interrupted by the door bell. Most likely Jordan again. She ran down the hallway and found Lee on her doorstep.

" If you're here to rub it in more you can leave"

"I'm here to apologize Alex"

"apologize for what?"

"everything"

Alex narrowed her eyes on him but eventually opened the door wider allowing him access.

" I'm sorry about yesterday, sometimes sara doesn't know when to shut up"

" everything she said was true so no big deal"

"that's a lie Alex and you know it"

"really? Is it? Because it seems kind of funny that mere months after I gave you my virginity on a fucking silver platter you lost interest"

" it wasn't you Alex"

" it's not you it's me? Come on Lee I thought you'd be more creative than that"

" I loved you"

" you loved the thought of me. You loved having sex with me. You loved the thought of some stupid girl hanging onto your every word and looking at you like you walked on fucking water. You didn't love me because If you did you'd still be with me because guess what im not the one that changed"

He looked at her like he had never seen her before.

"you have changed. When did you become this cold hostile person"

Alex gave a sad laugh.

" you'd be happy to know you had a part in that transformation"

"what happened to the girl I used to know?"

" you broke her. And now she's gone forever. Congratulations you killed me."

"Alex i'm sorry."

"if you were sorry you wouldn't have done it. You've said what you came here to say please leave"

"I am sorry"

"yea tell me something I don't know"

"for what I did to you" he snapped.

"leave" Alex said again opening the door. And with that Lee walked out of the door and hopefully out of her life. Then Alex did something she hasn't done In ages. She went to her room, crawled in the bed.. And cried herself to sleep. Her last thought.

'happy birthday to me'. --------------------------------------------