Separation and Obsession (Hyde x Female Reader)

Chapter 26

After sleeping for a while, I was woken up by Ken. For a minute, I forgot everything that happened. Taking a nap really does reset your mind. Though, I did have a headache. I didn't say much, I just followed everyone else into a nearby building. We took an elevator to a higher floor. "Are you feeling alright Hyde?" Tetsuya asked me since I was being very quiet. "Yea. Just a headache" I replied. It really was bugging me. I tried to think of the events that happened before falling asleep. It all seemed like a hazy dream, but I remembered. Crying. Seeing her one last time and being put to sleep by Yukihiro. The thoughts made my head pound even more.

We arrived at the office where our human manager, Sawamura, greeted us. "I'm glad you guys made it in good timing. Kazuma filled me in, told me you would be a little late" he said to us. I was relieved that Kazuma was able to do something. I'm seriously in his debt. The four of us took a seat at the table in the room and started discussing some things. Mostly band related, sales and other things. Though it was mostly Yukihiro that was doing the talking. "I really would like to expand the fanbase of the band", Sawamura started, "Maybe outside of Japan if we can. Though that might be hard because I don't really know where we could possibly try to expand to" he explained. His words caught my attention. He wanted us to possibly go outside Japan. This would be perfect. I could fly out to see (y

) if everything went well. I wondered just how much Yukihiro told Kazuma about everything that was going on with me. Surely this was his doing. He was good at convincing people. "What about America? A lot of non-American groups go on tour over there. Especially in New York and Los Angeles", I suggested out loud. The facts were true though. "And America is pretty culturally diverse. It wouldn't be a bad start" chimed in Tetsuya to back me up. "Going to America would be exciting! A lot of Japanese people want to go there. I'm sure a lot of fans would go out to see us too" Ken even added in a good word to the conversation. It was for a solid amount of good reasons. "That's not a bad idea. These are very good points too. I can have Kazuma do some research, since he is good at it. Though the only thing I'm worried about are cultural differences. I don't know much about American music or how to get the band's name out there. For all I know, what works here in Japan, could miss in America" Sawamura said, deep in thought about how this would all work. Though it was true our two countries were different, people's love for music is the same everywhere.

"Why not have the band go on a mini vacation to America?", someone had suggested as they walked in the room. It was our vampire manager, Kazuma. "A vacation? Would that be a good idea Kazuma?", Sawamura asked him, as if to hear what he had to say. I wanted to see how Kazuma was going to convince him, so I stayed quiet. "A lot of celebrities go to other parts of the world for fun. How is this any different? Besides, it will give them a better idea of how American people are and how they can interact with them" Kazamura started explaining. At the moment, Sawamura was interested but not totally into the idea. "The band just finished being a tour, they deserve a break anyways. I would rather have them be familiar with the country than be totally lost" Kazuma continued, being persistent. The four of us waited for Sawamura's response. I was praying he would be on board. Anything to go see her again. "Well. I suppose you're right. It would be for the band's benefit, personal and non. I'll see what I can do to start the process and see what we'll need to do. The rest of you can discuss possible locations to go visit and do some research" Sawamura had given in and agreed to the idea. It was exciting to think it was going so well.

Sawamura left the room to start arranging things. Once the door shut, it allowed Kazuma to get the details he needed for this to work in our favor. "Before we start looking, I want the story. From the beginning. Yukihiro only gave me the gist of it and if we're gonna make this happen, I'll need all the details. Let's start from the top" Kazuma requested. Telling Kazuma the whole story from the beginning, is something only I could do. But whenever I try to recall events like this, I always get upset. Though it was in mine and (y

)'s best interest if he knew everything so he could help. "I met her at one of our concerts in Osaka" I began to tell him. Each detail I recalled, every memory that played in my mind, began to slowly build up my emotions. I was trying my best to hold it all in. Even if it was a bad idea. But remembering the hardest part, seeing her before she left, broke me. Tears started pouring down. My head began throbbing from the headache again, it only made me feel more miserable than I already was. I felt like a mess, as I lost control of myself. I wanted this pain to stop. I stood up from my chair and held my head in pain. Each throb from the headache, it was going to drive me insane. I needed anything, something to stop the pain. The only thing I could think of was to bite my hand, in hopes it would divert some of the pain. So I did. I sunk my own fangs into my right hand. Everyone in the room practically jumped up. "What the hell are you doing!? Don't hurt yourself, dumba*s!", Ken was startled as he pulled my hand away from my mouth. "I better get the big guns. Ken make sure he doesn't hurt himself again", Kazuma had instructed as he left the room. What was he talking about? Did he have a way to calm me down? What could calm me down from an emotional tantrum like this?

Ken had restrained my arms behind me so I couldn't bite myself again and made me sit down again.. "Get a hold of yourself Hyde, damn it! You can't be losing your sh*t like this! Not on my watch", Ken was being aggressive but for a good reason. If I could, I would get a hold of myself. I swear each breakdown was something new. I didn't know how I was going to handle things anymore. The thought only made me more depressed. Tetsuya stood in front of me and made me look at him by holding the sides of my face with his hands, "You're going to be fine. No matter how much pain you experience, it will be okay" he told me comfortingly like always. It was true. I made it out okay from the other breakdowns, but why did it seem to get worse and worse? My breathing was uneven from crying and hyperventilating. I tried my best to even it out, though it only worked a little. "Here Tetsuya, wrap up his hand if you can", I heard Yukihiro tell him. At least I held some sanity to understand what people were still saying. "Give me your hand that you bit. You can do that, right?" Tetsuya asked gently, as if talking to a child. I felt Ken loosen his grip on my right arm so I could move it. I offered Tetsuya my hand so he could do what he had to. Even as I calmed down a little, my body began to shake. It was almost like I was a ticking time bomb. Who knew what I could do? But I had my family with me. They would stop me from hurting myself again or hurting someone else if I was driven to. I watched as Tetsuya treated my hand and wrapped it up tenderly. Yukihiro brought over some tissues, so I could wipe my face from all the tears.

A\N If your wondering where that pic from , its from a movie called "Moon Child" 2003. It has Gackt and Hyde in it and they be looking FINE