✯ North Star ✯

Part 11

John B and I head down to the ferry but when we got there the guy selling tickets was leaving.
"No no no no. Oh no. Hey excuse me, sir?
Wait wait. Are you sold out?" John B asks him
"You aren't the only ones trying to get off the island" the man tells us
"God damn it. Oh shit" John B says hitting the stand a little
"Um..." I mumble looking around 
"Hey follow me." John b says grabbing my hand
"Okay yeah. Sure" I say
"Um... Hey so have you ever been on a tugboat?" John B asks me 
"You're not serious" I ask him
"We gotta talk our way onto this barge" John B tells me
"Okay" I say
"I got this. These are my people. Just wait." John b tells me
"Hey Cap! So question for you... Um... look me and my sister really need to get on this boat man. Can we hop on?" John b asks him
"No" the man says
"Just... just help a brother out" John B begs him
"No. Can't do it." The man says
"Thanks for nothing" John B says then walks back to me.
"So..." I trail off smiling
"Um... So... they're booked" John B tells me
"Who? Your uh... your... your people?" I ask him
"What you got a better idea?" John B challenges me
"Yeah. I do" I say grabbing to rain coats
"Here. Put it on" I tell him
"Okay." John b laughs obviously thinking my plan won't work
"Okay grab a tank." I tell him
"Hurry." I tell him walking towards the ferry
John b leads me through the ferry taking me into a door and quickly close a door
"Shh..." he says as we hear people walk past us
Then the boat jerks causing us to get off balance "We're moving." I tell him
"Ye-yeah" John B says surprised my plan worked

After a while it got really hot in the room so I pulled up my hair and John b took up his shirt
"Oh my God. What is the hottest you've ever been?" I ask him
"Right now" John B says
"Same. Do you... I don't know do you wanna play a game?" I ask him
"No I don't." John b groans
"Cool. So there's this game my sisters and I play. It's called truth or dare except there's no dare." I tell him
"Thats just truth star. That's truth" John B tells me.
"Ok yeah whatever. Do you wanna play truth?" I ask him
"Why not" John B says
"Okay. Mm. You get first question" I tell him.
"Why did you kill Dimitri?" John b says in a Russian accent
"Oh, that is too easy. Dimitri, he... he knew too much. He was compromised." I say as I copy the accent
"Yes, you know, we all know too much eventually." He says
"My turn" I laugh
"Mm-hm?" John B hums
"What did you see in the painting? Something made you want to go to the archives,obviously" I ask him
"Somebody who was supposed to be dead wasn't" John B tells me
"Like your dad?" I ask
"Yeah. Okay. You know what?" John B says
"Oh my gosh. I'm sorry" I tell him
"No it's fine" John B tells me
"No it's not. I am such an idiot. That was a really lame thing to say. I can't imagine losing my dad. My entire family would fall apart without him. Everybody thinks he's this really rich guy but he's from the cut and he's busted his ass for everything that we have." I tell him
"You appreciate him" John B says
"Yeah. I do a lot." I smile

"That's how I feel about my dad. You know how whales make those deep noises? It's like a..." John B moans trying to sound like a whale.
"Yeah?" I ask laughing a little
"That's how...other whales hear each other across the ocean and I know this sounds really weird but, uh... I can hear him calling to me... like he needs my help. But uh I..." he trails off not knowing how to finish
"I get it" I smile
"You do?" He asks
"Yeah I understand" I tell him

I decided to take a small nap after a bit but that was a stupid idea because I was quickly woken up by a nightmare

"Woah star you ok?" John b asks me putting his hands on my shoulders
"Huh? Oh yeah ugh I'm sorry it was just a nightmare" I tell him
"It looked like more than just a nightmare" he tells me
"Ok fine it was more of a memory that I don't wanna remember" I tell him sighing
"Wanna talk about it?" He asks
I paused for a second, no one has ever asked me that before
"Uhh sure why not. I'm an open book" I say sitting up
"Prepare to get your mind blown" I laugh
"Uhh where to start. Well basically my dad, ward and my mom were married and had rafe then after a while they wanted to have another child so my mom got pregnant again." I explain
"With you and Sarah" John b says
"Yes and no. Basically the doctors only saw one baby so they told my parents they were having a little girl. My mom was through the roof because she had always wanted a girl and boy. Nothing more than that nothing less than that. So 9 months later she gave birth to Sarah then here I came as a surprise. My dad somehow convinced my mom it would be ok and took it upon himself to name me. 2 years ago by and my mom started to gain a drinking problem. My dad did his best to get her to stop but it didn't work. On Sarah's and I's third birthday my dad flew us all down to our beach house. I was out playing in the sand with Rafe and Sarah was with my dad. Rafe left to grab some water from the beach and that's when my mom saw a perfect opportunity you get what she always wanted, one son and one daughter. She grabbed me by the throat and started to choke me, mumbling a bunch of different things under her breath. As black dots started to cover my vision I saw my dad grab her off of me before passing out. Woke up in the hospital stayed there a few days and my dad never left my side, that's when he started singing me that song. A few months later my dad had told us my mom had died, didn't tell us how but I always just guessed overdose. Sarah doesn't remember any of it, I'm not sure if rafe does cause he hadn't brought it up ever, but me. I remember it clear as day, I wish I didn't but because of these stupid nightmares I remember every detail of it" I finish realizing how long I had been talking
"Sorry that was a lot" I sigh
"What star don't apologize. I'm so sorry you had to go through that" he tells me
"It was a long time ago it's ok" I try to smile
"It doesn't matter if it was, you see it every night" he tells me
I just look up at him with a smile
"Thank you JB" I smile
He just smiles back
"New nickname?" He asks laughing
"Shut up John b takes to long to say" I laugh
"Ok ok that's fair" he says raising his hands