If I loved you

Knife to the heart

Pa didn't come to see me the next day but ma came.....with Ann. I talked to them for some time and after visiting hours ended they left.

'Here's your medicine. Take some rest. I'll come back later to check the BP.' The nurse left after cleaning and bandaging my wound.

I lied down and my mind started to think about New.

New.......

How to describe him? He was my only source of happiness in that orphanage. When our kind hearted head Mrs Jones was still alive we had lived a comfortable life there. There was food on the plate, clothes on our body. She even sent us to school regularly. There were many children in that orphanage but without a doubt we were her favourites. With New by my side I was content and happy.

But after her death........our peaceful life came to an end. The gang took over the place and we became their servants. We were on our own. Even eating two meals per day became harder and harder. We all were suffering but New was the one who took the hit.

His fair skin, cute face, chubby cheeks and gentle behaviour became his weakness. The gang leader.... big brother... became so interested in him that he even forced New to join his gang. I was too young to understand back then but now that I think of it, he had dirty thoughts towards New.

I was too naive to see his designs but I think New saw it clearly. So he desperately wanted to get adopted. That time I was angry with him. Why he wants to leave me here, why he wants to get adopted, why he doesn't understand my feelings, why he always wants to keep me quiet......I didn't understand a thing.

But after becoming an adult I slowly realised that all of that was his desperation. He just wanted to survive in this harsh world. At the age of thirteen, he was way more mature than me.

When he finally met his family he wasn't elated, he was worried sick for me. I didn't know that back then. At that time as a thirteen year old boy, I was devastated that he was going to leave me so without thinking I insulted him.

When he was sent to the hospital no one bothered to take me there. I stayed back in that hellhole and listened to all kinds of crap.

'What a lucky basterd! He is the long lost son of that famous family.'

'His nurse stole him from the hospital after birth and wanted to kill him but somehow changed her mind. And New ended up rescued by our Mrs Jones.'

'That person in the black suit is his uncle. Do you know he is the current head of the Red Dragon group?'

'Wow! Rich and famous! I have heard about that business group. They are very big.'

'But my classmate said that the Wachanit family is very mysterious. They are even friends with that notorious Jutamas family.'

'Huh! That Wachanit family is notorious too.'

I started to lose my mind. I don't care how rich they are or how powerful they are or how notorious they are. I just didn't want New to leave me alone.

'Do you think he will take Tay with him? After all he is his best friend.'

'I think he will. He needs a servant in his new home right? Ha ha.'

'I don't think so. He is going to forget about this place quickly. We will become trash to him.'

'New is not like that.'

'Yeah. I think he will definitely take Tay with him.'

Will he take me with him? I became a bit happy. Yes! He is the son of a famous rich family now. He can ask for anything. I waited with bated breath for his demand. He won't leave me behind. I know that!