If I loved you

All that you have is all that I'll ever need

This time I let him take the charge and the kiss was also enjoyable for me. I patiently guided his tongue and he didn't bite me that much.

'New.....New...I don't understand.....' He was gasping in my ear.

I was out of breath too....

'What's there to understand? Didn't I tell you before that I have been in love with you for so many years? Just because I don't show doesn't mean it's not true.'

'You are saying that you are in love with me but you act just opposite of it! You don't want me to kiss you...you kicked me out of our room and stopped talking to me.' His voice was full of grievances.

'Te te....be patient with me.... Sometimes I don't know what I am doing or saying.....if I hurt you....it wasn't intentional.....I am sorry....' I caressed his face and told him earnestly.

I don't want him to disappear again....not even for a few hours....I have learnt my lesson....In past years when he wasn't here I didn't get much time to miss him because from the day I entered that Wachanit family I got caught in various plotting and scheming...not one day I got mental peace or time to think about him...my one and only goal was to secure his rightful place and to take the company out of Vasu Wachanit's control... But now life is peaceful.....I am with my family....l have two loving mothers, one caring uncle..and Tay...and it's like this past ten years never happened. We are together from the day I was born....and I don't want to stay away from him....not anymore.

'Don't push me away then....I was so happy when you told me about Non and that spy and showed me that video......I thought you were willing to trust me....' His eyes were misty and water droplets were giving his face an ethereal glow.

'I trust you. I trust you completely. I know you are capable of handling any situation...... it's just....I don't want you to suffer.....' I softly kissed his wet lips.

'No. Let me suffer. I want to suffer with you. I want to be with you when you are in pain. I want to hold you in my arms and to tell you that everything's going to be alright. I want you to rely on me.' His hug became tighter.

I was in pain but didn't show that on my face.

'In this aspect you didn't change much you know. In the orphanage you never shared your problems with me. You never told me about Haru's advances, you didn't tell me in detail about your involvement with them, hell you took such a big decision to change places with me but didn't let me know a thing.'

'Then ..... It's a good thing that I am still the same..right?' I blinked my eyes innocently.

'Hey! From now on you have to tell me everything!' He pulled me closer.

'Mn. But you have to promise that you won't get jealous. Luke is just a friend. Nothing more.' I gently wipe the water from his cheek. We both have gotten thoroughly soaked.

'Just a friend? He said he loves you. And don't tell me he was joking. He was very serious.' He pressed his cheek on my hand and looked at me with sullen eyes.

'But I don't love him.' I pinched his cheek.

'You rely on him.' He pinched my waist and when I scowled he laughed.

I laughed too.

'That's because he knows everything about me.....my good side....my bad side....but Tay, don't misunderstand the situation. Even he doesn't get to be with me when I am in pain. Remember that day when I called you.....I was having an episode. That's the first time I sought someone's assistance. And that someone was you.' I carefully explained.

'He doesn't accompany you when you are having a hard time?' He was having trouble believing me.

'No. Whenever this has happened in the past, I have kicked out everyone from my side, including him. Only when the situation got out of hand, he took me to the hospital.'