If I loved you

Soul meets soul on lovers' lips

'New....tell me....what should I do.....' His voice was full of agitation.

'Can you talk to me about something insignificant..... something that is mundane....not important....'

'Uh.....to divert your attention?' He got the hint.

'Mn.'

'Are you in pain?' His voice became panicky.

'It's nothing physical but mental.......I want to drink..'

'Oh!' He understood.

'So keep talking and say something..... anything......so that I don't want to.....'

Your gentle voice always works as a balm to my heart.

'Let me come to you na? I am having a hard time too.'

I couldn't help but laugh.

'Tay.....I am a mess....I am a burden to you...why did you insist me to come here?' I mumbled.....my head was spinning and I was having a hard time just to hold my phone properly.

'Don't say stupid things. Just keep talking......and I'll find you soon.'

'Don't come..... Wait for me.....I'll come to you.....after I get a hold of myself.'

'Why? Why do you want to do everything by yourself? Why can't you rely on me?'

'You are not diverting my attention.....You are reminding me of my shortcomings. Tay.....stop talking about that okay?'

'Oh .... sorry... sorry....I am not helping you.....'

'Mn.'

'New......if you want....I can....I can...'

'Hm? You can what?'

'Should I call Luke?' He said it so forcefully that I had to smile.

'I don't want Luke.....but if you think it's necessary then you can call him.....'

'I don't want to! I really don't!'

'Mn. Then don't call him.'

Suddenly his voice broke....

'Hello....hello...New?'

And the line got disconnected.

After talking to him my condition was not worsening that rapidly. The tremors gradually subsided and the spinning of my head was completely gone.

After a while I stood up slowly and felt just a bit light headed, that's all....but I know it's going to come back soon so I came out from under the bridge and started to walk towards the river.

This path from the bridge to the river is full of tall grass and weeds. I was not in the mood to find the proper path so I used this one for a short cut.

After walking for five minutes I saw Tay frantically running towards me.

'New!' He was on the road and I was near the riverside.

For me he left that comfortable road and took this difficult path.

I slowly waved and said,

'Stay where you are. I am coming.'

But he didn't listen to me and his speed increased. In no time he was in front of me.

'Are you okay?' He didn't come closer but stayed a bit far.

'Mn.'

'Why....why...so suddenly...'

'I didn't take today's medicine..'