If I loved you

One step forward and two steps back

'What the fuck was that!' I stormed into that tiny cubicle and shouted angrily.

'I thought you were going to come out sooner. Look at you....all grown up and able to hold back your anger for this long.' Luke was unbothered by how angry I was.

'Why were you telling him my life story?'

'He should know about your struggle.'

'I don't want him to! I don't want him to feel guilty for something that has nothing to do with him.'

'Everything that happened to you directly or indirectly has something to do with him.'

'No. It was my choice! Stop making me a victim here. I am not!'

'Agree to disagree.'

'Stop interfering in my business. Why were you pestering him when he has already gave up on me?'

'You think so?'

'It's clear as day!'

'So you believe that he just wants to stay as your friend and nothing more.'

'He made it very clear. And thanks for letting me hear all that. You did that for my benefit right! Because you knew I was listening.'

'Well, Tong informed me that you headed for the cafeteria. And when I went to buy coffee I asked the girl in the cash register and she told me about you.'

'You are really something!' I walked out from that room.

'Wait!' He came after me.

'I want to be alone.'

'New.'

'Luke, stop following me. I don't want to hit you.'

'You believed him, then what about me?' He grabbed my hand and pushed me to the wall.

'What?'

'I said I love you.....did you believe that?'

'You were saying that to provoke him. You love me! Huh! What a joke!'

'Why's it a joke? Why do you believe what he said so easily but don't want to believe me when I am saying it?'

'Because....!'

'Because what?' He put his hands on the wall and trapped me there.

'What are you doing?' I narrowed my eyes.

'Making you believe me.' His playful smile was sore to my eyes.

'I'll punch you!'

'Go ahead.'

'Listen you asshole, even if he gave up on me, I haven't. He has waited ten years for me.....but what I did to him? I ran away the moment I got the chance. Yes, I know what I did was wrong. But at that time I thought that was the right thing to do. Now I am going to pursue him. Don't forget that it isn't one sided love. It never was. I love him too.'

'What a shame that he didn't get to hear your speech. But New, now you have to deal with me too. I have also waited ten years to tell you all this.'

'Luke.....you are my friend....I trust you immensely. No doubt about that ....so don't try to get on my nerves. I know very well that you don't love me. You are just taking revenge because I made you worried...'

'I really love you. Believe me.'

So you're not going to back down? Fine, let me show you my own trick.

'So you are saying that you truly love me?' I stopped frowning and looked at him thoughtfully.

'Yes. I love you.' He nodded.