If I loved you

When you love someone you fight for them

When I came back it was already dinner time. I wasn't hungry but had to have some food because of my medicine. After that I went for a walk on the river side. I needed that to clear my head. The sky was filled with thick, clouds that blocked out the moon and the stars, casting an eerie darkness over the world.

In the midst of this gloomy night, I started to think about New. Why our lives became so complicated? All New wanted was a family and all I wanted was New. Then why everything so messed up now?

'Tay?'

I turned around and saw Ann walking towards me.

'Aunty asked me to call you back. The weather is not looking good.'

I nodded and silently followed her.

'What's wrong?' She asked.

'Huh? Nothing..'

'Where did you go this afternoon?'

'To meet a friend.'

'Take me with you the next time. I want to meet your friend too.'

'When are you going back?' I was really not in a good mood.

'Uncle asked me to stay for a few more weeks. Why?'

'Then stay..... but please..... leave me alone.'

'Why are you like this? Don't you know how much I love you?'

'And don't you know that I do not love you?'

'You are still playing hard to get. Fine fine, I won't bother you anymore but one day I will make you mine. I promise.'

What kind of a person is this!

'Don't be so delusional. It's not good for your health.' We already reached our house so I was about to push the door open when she suddenly grabbed my hand and said,

'I am not delusional. I am the only one for you. I love you so much Tay.'

'For the last time Ann....I don't love you. I am already in love with someone else.'

'You are lying again.'

'No. I am telling the truth. So please, I am begging you, don't mess with me.'

With that I went straight to my room and shut the door noisily.

What's wrong with this girl! Is she crazy or what!

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The whole night I couldn't close my eyes even for a bit. The wind howled and whipped through the trees, and the rain poured down in sheets, creating an unsettling sound.

Today I have gathered so much information. Each one is important. New and his uncle, New and his mother, Jutamas family........ death of a girl......was she New's fiancée? New spent two years there......was he in love with her?

Ah! Why do I have to be in love with a straight guy! One-sided love is already so painful and it's extra hard for me because I know very well that he won't love me back...he can't love me back..... ever. Still my heart won't give up...