If I loved you

Let me heal you

'New?'

'Mn?' His voice was melancholic.

'Are you...... mad at me?' I peeked at him.

'Will anything change if I get mad at you?' He gave me a long glance.

'I...I came here to ...' I was racking my brain to come up with an answer.

'You came here to make my life difficult.' He closed his eyes for a moment and shook his head.

'No! I came here because I was worried.'

'Hm. Tell me the names of those idiots who are helping you get my whereabouts, my work schedule, my itinerary.....just give me those names.' His voice became stern.

'Why?' I acted all innocent.

'Why? Because I am personally going to send them to hell.' He gritted his teeth in suppressed anger.

'Hey, calm down! I am not going to tell you and you are also not going to probe into this matter. I am your stalker, I have my way to acquire information....just leave it to that.' I don't like to see him this way.

'You are my stalker?' His attention got diverted.

'I am. For ten years.' Whew! Yes, focus on me!

'You weren't like this before. You have changed so much. You started to tell lies.'

'Believe me! I am really looking for you from the time we parted.'

'Not talking about that.'

'New....'

'You deceived not only me but your parents too. How sad they will be if they find out that you lied to them and came here instead of Australia.'

'How do you know that I was scheduled to go to Australia.' I narrowed my eyes.

'Is that important right now?' He looked away.

'Very.'

'I told my boys to keep an eye on you.'

Huh! I knew it!

'So you are a stalker too?' I smiled.

'There's a difference.' He gave me a side glance.

'I did all that to get close to you and you did all that to push me away. Is it the difference?' I laughed.

'I don't know what you are talking about.' He was avoiding eye contact.

'You weren't behind the troubles of my father's company. You lied too.' I talked to my father about the company and he told me about the whole issue.

'I told you it was I who.....'

'No. You weren't. I knew from the start. That investor was a shitty person to begin with. Pa always disliked him. Threatening to withdraw support..... it's nothing new to him. He did that twice in the past already. Pa is fed up with him and about to cut the ties. But......you didn't know the details. You heard him talking over the phone and took that opportunity to push me away. New....you can't get rid of me that easily. I know what you are and aren't capable of. So don't try to pretend to be a bad guy. At least not in front of me. I am your best friend. I was, I am and always will be.'

He didn't say anything but I think I caught him off guard.

'You still don't know how much you mean to me. I love you more than myself and I know that you care for me too. Yes, it's not the same kind of affection but I am not complaining.'

'I don't....'

'What? You don't care for me? Not even as a friend? Then why did you arrange a nice family for me when you found yours? Wasn't that your dream? To have a loving and caring family? You wanted me to have that too because you weren't able to leave me alone in that hell and you weren't willing to take me with you. Your uncle is twisted and I think you knew that from the beginning when he came to meet you at the orphanage.'