If I loved you

Some wounds heal only with love

'Let me take off your shirt.'

'No, I am good.'

'Okay..... I just wanted to clean it.'

'Oh....um..fine...take it....' He lowered his gaze and stared at his shirt, unwilling to touch it.

'Let me do it.' I started to unbutton his shirt carefully so that the mud won't touch him. This proximity was giving me goosebumps. When my hand accidentally touched his bare chest he shivered slightly.

Ah, my hands are really cold. I quickly withdrew.

'I'll wash it in the rain.' I got up and held it under the rain and the mud started to wash away. It took a few minutes to wash it completely clean. Then I hung it beside my shirt. After everything was done I turned around and saw New was looking at me.

'Why are you staring at me?' He was doing this for a while.

'That rash...... it's bleeding.'

'Oh. It's so itchy that I can't stop scratching. That's why the skin is broken and it's bleeding. I'll put some ointment on it after I return home.'

'That ointment is oil based, not suitable for this kind of thing. Here, apply this.' He took out a tiny container filled with green gel, from his pants pocket.

'What's this? Local medicine?'

'Mn. That rash is caused by some poisonous leaves. This medicine is good.' He threw the container at me and I caught it.

'And someone said that he doesn't care for me.' I laughed and he glared.

I opened it and tried to apply some clumsily but missed most of the rash. New was watching me and after a few minutes he sprang up on his feet and came to me with a huff.

'It's not the body cream. Why are you rubbing it all over? Let me do it.' He snatched back the container and started to apply the medicine with a serious expression. We were standing like this, my back to his front...... upper body naked.....his hand was warm and my body was cold.....his touch, his breath, his mint-like smell,.....was making my heart race.

I thought my fever was coming back.....I shook my head and started to scratch my neck. Something wet touched my hand.... blood or medicine....Ah whatever! I wanted to walk away but to my utter bewilderment New grabbed my wrist to prevent me from scratching the neck and chuckled in my ear,

'You don't have to be so depressed. Not everything he said to you.....is true.'

What! I tried to look at him with confusion. But I just saw your behaviour towards him...!

'Don't trust people so easily. I told you many times. But you don't learn from your mistakes. Anyone can fool you with their eyes closed.' He was very close to my body.

'You were looking at him with goo goo eyes.' I glared at him.

'Don't over react, just listen to me. Non is....not what you think. Don't trust him. He knows how to manipulate people. A true Jutamas.'

My heart was beating fast....

Then......he doesn't love him!
Then.......he is not going to marry him! Everything is a lie! Ah! I didn't know I was holding my breath but New nudged my hand lightly and said,

'Breath.'

Hah! I exhaled loudly and my knees gave out. I got down on my knees with a thud.

New quickly held me close. If he hadn't caught me, I would have collapsed on the floor.

'I said don't over react.' He shook his head but a soft chuckle rang in my ear. He was squatting down beside me.

That asshole Non! All of that was acting!