Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

I hate people

Looking back now, i used to be a completely different person back then. I didn't interact with anyone during work unless it was absolutely necessary. even seventeen members seemed perplexed about my silence. seungkwan was surprised how different i was in public compared to just in front of him and how much i had changed since we last worked together.

some people thought i was shy, some believed i was a bitch but my situation was completely different. my last work had left me so traumatized that i had to take a 2 months break from work because of social anxiety.

but soon i was about to be *fresh out of college* type of broke and i had to work again. mr. kang offered me the job at going seventeen with the assurance that i won't have to deal with the same thing again. i wanted to reject the offer but seungkwan persuaded me. 
obviously i couldn't reject the offer after he told me about the rooftop cafe in hybe. 

the whole drama at my previous work place started with a ridiculously simple interaction. 

i was working at music bank at that time and one of the mcs was choi soobin of txt. It was a fairly normal day. well as normal as it can be when you are about to go live and you have still not completed your job. 

I hurried with cue cards in my hand determined to not lose my job. i turned a blind corner and bumped straight into someone. you might be wondering why i bump into others so much. that's cause i am stupid. anyways i was prepared for an ugly fall but instead someone caught me by my waist. the cards were thrown up by the impact and fell down like confetti around us.

it was an extremely dramatic moment. we were looking at each other with wide eyes, both too shocked by the incident. i blinked as i realized the position we were in. i balanced myself on my own feet and thanked him with a bow. 

soobin bowed back smiling gently as he told me it was okay. 

that was it. 
quite normal right?

except it was kinda cool. but you get what i mean. 

apparently the other staff didn't think the same way. someone circulated our photos on the group chats. and many people got jealous. i wasn't expecting that kind of response but rumors blew up among all the workers. soobin smiling at me a couple times didn't help.

I accidentally heard my 'friends' talking about me trying to seduce idols and dressing immodestly and what not behind my back. i was hurt of course but i didn't give two shits about my coworkers as long as i got paid, but things turned a little extreme right after.

for many days i came to work to find notes on my desk. unfortunately, it wasn't a love letter. i received notes full of slurs and threats. i was amazed at the immaturity of whoever did that. i wasn't expecting it to actually affect me but i felt cornered and helpless. my life became dull and lonely. when i got tired of the negativity. i left a note begging them to stop. it was something like this: 

shut up motherfucker.

 apparently it offended them and they decided to express their anger. 

i was walking home alone when i noticed someone following me. I got scared and tried to walk faster but the next street i turned into was empty of any people. i panicked and tried to run, a fear gripping me. a pair of hands pulled me back harshly, i tried to get away but her nails dig into my arms as tried to trap me. she was wild. i felt as if it was my last day on earth. i hated myself for going on a diet. i got hysterical. i couldn't die with a salad in my stomach.

i swung my bag at her face and she fell down clutching her jaw. i couldn't see her face as she was wearing a mask and i wasn't curious enough to risk my life. so i ran away as soon as i could.

I left the job soon after, the incident left me terrified of people and i decided to not talk to anyone at work again.

:o Cookie: Mr. kang knew arin from her very first project as a student. he was impressed by her creativity and recognized her while looking for candidates for the empty creative director position.