Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

Fix

like every other night that night came to an end too and a golden burst of light faded the black into a pale blue.

seventeen will go back to korea while some of the crew including me has to stay for 1 more day to complete a few filler shots of the city. only one thing was certain that day. 

once he leaves, neither of us know when our paths will cross again if ever.

i was purposefully hiding away from them but like always seungkwan found me. he approached me with a warm but awkward smile and i tried my best to look welcoming.

"we will leave in an hour" he spoke, his hands hanging at his sides awkwardly. 

i chuckled sadly at his cuteness. i missed him so much. at least i still have seungkwan with me and after all this i am sure he will always come back to me no matter what happens.

"don't waste my time boo seungkwan. just say that you love me" i teased and his tense body relaxed instantly as he laughed along.

"i don't have to die by the hands of a jealous ex-boyfriend" he rolled his eyes sassily.

"i want to make a promise but i am not sure if i will be able to keep it" i said in a monotonic voice.

"no one plans to break promises arin. what matters is whether you truly tried to keep it or not"

"then i will say it" i cleared my throat. "song arin and boo seungkwan will stay friends forever, and if ever one of us tries to ghost the other than he/she shall be turned to a real ghost through some sharp and shiny means"

seungkwan tried to stifle his laugh as i spoke with a straight face. i offered my hand and he accepted it, shaking it to seal the deal, a devious smirk on his otherwise adorable face.

"that sounds like a threat not a promise" he commented, eyeing me judgmentally. i blinked my eyes innocently as if i didn't understand what he meant.

we talked for a while, exchanging numbers once again and he seemed disappointed that i no longer had a man on my home screen. instead it was just my own pic which i like to stare at since i looked particularly hot that night.

i noticed something stir behind seungkwan and shook my head in exhaustion as i realized who it was.

"come out i saw you!" i said and suddenly an embarrassed dk was pushed revealing him. dk muttered traitor under his breath and pulled the other person too. hoshi and dino came out their faces tinted red in embarrassment.

"what's this?" seungkwan complained as they came closer to us as if they weren't just caught eavesdropping.

"it was dokyeom's idea" hoshi said causing dk to shoot a glare at him. 

"noona how was the ki-"

seungkwan cupped dino's face before he could speak more. i arched my brow and they laughed awkwardly. i guess one of them saw me and jeonghan last night. 

i swear if it's mingyu again.... 

"it was joshua" seungkwan said and my face fell a little without realizing. 

"speaking of shua hyun-" dino was interrupted once again.

"can i have a moment?" 

my eyes widened in surprise as his velvety voice sounded in my ears. i turned around to see him leaning on the wall with his hands buried in the pockets of an overcoat. the other members took the cue and left. dino made sure to be dramatic by hugging me and telling me he's waiting for me to marry his jeonghan hyung. hoshi trying to flirt only to be smacked by seungkwan and dk saying that he doesn't dislike me anymore which left me flabbergasted. does that mean he disliked me all this while?

joshua didn't say anything while this was happening but once we were alone he stepped forward cautiously. there was more than a meter of distance between us.

"now that you know everything i-"

"i don't hate you." i interrupted him knowing that he was going to apologize once again. but i have realized that we were both at fault. he was the one who drunkenly kissed me but i was the one who kept it a secret and escalated misunderstandings. we are more than fair.

"whatever i said that day, i didn't mean it. i never hated you joshua. i just hated what we became but now it's over and it doesn't matter anymore so no i don't hate you at all."

he took a deep breath and looked away from me. it seemed as if he had wanted to hear me say these words for a very long time.

"can we-" he seemed hesitant and i carefully reached out to hold his hand. joshua was surprised the gesture and he passed a small smile as confidence found it's way to his voice once more. 

"can we be friends again?"