Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

last night

i even gave him so many gifts .. 

and i wished him at 12 am on his every birthday ...

how can seungkwan say i didn't care for him? 

and what did he mean when he said jeonghan never called me a cheater? perhaps he just called me a disloyal bitch or something.

okay. arin. control yourself.

jeonghan would never use such words for me. or any other women. i knew him for years. he couldn't be that bad.

"where's jeonghan?" i was pulled out of my daze by jun's voice. they were supposed to move to the temple for shooting a horror themed game.

"soojin, arin go search" mr. oh commanded. he was treating me like a junior staff since the incident earlier. i didn't really care that much. it just meant he had to do his own work instead of making me do all of it.

i wasn't thrilled about searching for jeonghan in the empty house at night but there wasn't much of a choice.

if a ghost comes i will just have to do the same thing i do with mr. oh. ignore it.

i was about to sit down and go out when soojin finds him pretending like i was searching all the while but a certain someone, sleeping while sitting on an armchair with his head resting gracefully on the wooden railing caught my eye.

as i walked closer, the moon light illuminated his face and i could see the soft angelic features more clearly. even in the odd place, jeonghan was sleeping so peacefully. he must have been so tired, he probably fell asleep while waiting for filming.

i was supposed to wake him up but it was strangely difficult. how could i disturb his serenity? 

he looked so pure and i was overwhelmed by the desire to embrace him and let him rest in my arms. away from the stress waiting for him outside.

my gaze was fixed on his dimly lit form and i don't know when it happened but my fingertips were so close to touching his delicate skin, hovering above his cheek but with barely any distance.

it took all my power to not let myself close that tiny gap and i didn't even realize when my eyes started brimming with tears. 

it was so difficult to just stand there and look at him be so beautiful, when i know that after i wake him up, i can't even meet his eyes. 

because he isn't mine anymore. 

a tear trailed down my cheek leaving a coldness behind it. my heart was aching as if it needed that touch but before i could dare to do that, jeonghan's eyes fluttered open.

i retrieved my hand instantly and turned away so he couldn't see that i was crying. 

"am i late?" he asked and i just hummed in response, afraid that if i try to speak, he would know. because he knew me too well and i haven't changed at all.

i am still the same as i was years ago and perhaps even my heart is the same.

"is this a dream?" jeonghan sounded half asleep. i chuckled at his child-like tone and turned around. the tears already dried out. 

"this isn't a dream. let's go everyone is waiting for you." 

he hummed and got up, lazily stretching his arms above his head. he is so cute.

i guess pretty privilege is real. perhaps that's why even after everything he did i still can't resent him. 

"i need arinergy" 

i stopped walking. are my ears delulu or did he really say that?

i turned around and jeonghan's eyes were still drooping. he smiled and i wasn't sure how to ask him if he said what i think he did.

"if this is really a dream.." jeonghan stepped closer and i realized he was still drunk from the dinner. no wonder he was acting so strange.

he stepped towards me again until i had to raise my head just to look at him. my heart was pounding as he stared at me with those heavy lidded eyes. 

"then it won't do any harm to kiss you." 

and before i could react, he pressed his lips against mine.

:o Cookie: jeonghan and arin's first kiss was just as weird as them. they didn't yet have a label back then. they were playing a game and arin was sulking because jeonghan flipped the game by distracting her. she wasn't shutting up about how he cheated even after 15 minutes so he kissed her in front of minghao and seungkwan who were there giving them side eyes.

A/N: last night i appeared in your dream~