Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

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Is this love?

i asked this question every time i felt like i was falling for someone. one after another, people came into my life only to leave and it felt like a difficult question but the answer turned out to be very simple.

you will know it when you feel it.

we met unexpectedly and that feeling was different from anything i had ever felt. the moment i saw her, i knew what love was.

it was the kind of love that makes people die for. i fell in love with her roses and her thorns. and even the pain those thorns could cause.

i loved her all the way down to her soul and now i know why it's called 'falling' for someone. 

because it can make you shatter on impact.

that day was like any other. we had just finished a tour and i was excited to meet arin again. the night we reached home, i was chilling in my room, laying on my stomach with my phone pressed on my ear as i listened to her rambling about the world. 

"3 people have confessed to me since you were gone. i feel like a military wife." 

i laughed as arin started to complain again. we were on call and i didn't tell her that i was back in korea because i was going to surprise her but i didn't know i was in for a surprise too. 

"i will be back soon don't worry. and you owe me a weekend."

"ahh about that-"

"you have to take a break from work. no excuses" i interrupted before she could go back on her words.

"alright. but only one day." she tried to negotiate.

"one day and one night." 

arin gasped and i chuckled mischievously. "don't be a menace." she warned but i was sure she liked it. she loves it when i get flirty.

we talked for more than an hour about everything that we had to catch up on. even though i call her everyday, sometimes we only have enough time to talk about the important stuff especially when i am in another country.

"i miss you so much. come back soon baby"

"i will be back soon and i will make it memorable for you." i said in a teasing tone and even through the phone, her laugh sounded like music to my ears.

"i will wait. bye jeonghannie love you"

"good night and i love you too~"

i had just hung up when someone knocked my door.

"who is it?" i asked simply but i knew only joshua would knock twice softly like he's entering a princess' room.

"hyung it's me and shua hyung" mingyu answered after a delay. the door was open and they came in as soon as i allowed them to. for some reason they looked nervous and i got up from my relaxed position in worry.

"is everything okay?"

mingyu looked towards joshua urging him to speak and joshua sighed. "i want to talk to you. do you have time right now?"

"of course. i always have time for you guys." i said trying to put them in ease. mingyu sat on the armchair while joshua sat in front of me on the bed. he placed a cushion on his lap, fidgeting with it nervously.

"it's okay, just be honest." mingyu said to joshua, patting his back lightly. i couldn't understand why mingyu was there, he isn't the kind to come to talk about his problems at midnight.

"tell him everything, i will leave you two alone." he said and left the room without looking back. to say that i was surprised would be an understatement. it was freaking me out but i kept my composure just for joshua. he is always the one to make me feel safe so i wanted to return the feeling.

"what happened joshuji?" 

i tilted my head to look at his face because joshua wasn't meeting my eyes. he kept looking down at his fingers and the cushion. it was so unusual that i couldn't help but feel anxious.

"i have to tell you something." he began in a low voice. i waited patiently despite my curiosity. i didn't want him to feel pressured.

"what is it shua?" i asked softly.

he lifted his head to meet my eyes before responding.

"it's about me and arin."

A/N: 
at this point the titles seem to be so random ...