Dust || Yoon Jeonghan

hate you

"it's a really nice place" i said as i looked around the traditional japanese hotel. "tell them to give good reactions."

"isn't that too planned for a reality show?" my assistant soojin replied.

i rolled my eyes at her. noob.

"that's why we don't say it directly. instead you say 'we are sure you are going to love the lodgings. we can't wait to see your reactions.' " she cringed as i used the fakest sweet voice ever.

"will i have to do that?"

"yeah. i did such things when i was an assistant too."

she looked so discouraged. which is a good thing. 

the more scared you are, the more bravery it requires to overcome it.

thankyou for coming to my ted talk.

i looked at soojin as she copied what i said in front of seventeen and i could tell they were cringing at her fake voice too but hey! at least we got great reactions.

which involved seungkwan doing a cartwheel and dk falling on the ground.

"we will meet in the courtyard after 2 hours. you can rest till then." i announced from behind the cameras and everyone seemed happy.

then the cameras turned off.

and suddenly i was invisible. they all scurried away. some greeted the staff once more, some were just too tired and hurried to their rooms. but it seemed all activity happened around me but excluding me. 

i felt my mood plunge and just went back to work. 

that's how i have always lived. work, work, work. i will probably die working. 

i hope i die in a mansion.

there were a lot of things to do while the artists rested, just as i was about to rest for a few minutes, soojin came up to me looking urgent.

i sighed. "what now?" 

"i need your help mam, it's emergency." she was shaking and i became worried. i followed her and it wasn't pleasant to realize where we were going.

joshua and dk were sitting outside their room. their eyes lit up when i came. even dk. 

something is fishy.

"what happened?"

"there's a bug in our room." joshua said politely and i couldn't help but scoff. 

"please remove it"  dk looked at me with puppy eyes. 

oh how people change.

"excuse me, who are you?" i asked innocently. 

dk pouted. "come on noona, i am sorry for earlier." 

i rolled my eyes, he has rarely called me noona before. must be a serious situation. 
"please arin, i want to rest" joshua said in his softest voice. 

i felt so angry at him acting as if nothing ever happened between us. i went inside the room with soojin hiding behind me. 

"WHERE ARE YOU BUG?" i shouted confidently. "can't believe y'all were scared of a literal natural protein bar."  

"are you going to eat it?" dk asked and i just stared at him with disappointment. 

"no- i mean everyone has different taste" he started defending "i won't judge you."

 "i am gonna feed it to you if you don't shut up." i said and he smiled awkwardly. 

i took brave steps and found a huge bug behind the couch. i showed my palm to soojin like a surgeon. 

and she placed her hand over mine. WHILE BLUSHING!!!

joshua and dk gasped. 

i am surrounded by idiots. 

"no give me something to trap it in!" she made an o face and brought a glass. i took careful steps towards the bug and trapped it easily.

"see how easy that was? you guys are such scaredy cats." i bluffed. "what's so scary about it? this is not- AARH" i screamed when something brushed past my hand suddenly. 

"oh that was me" joshua said sheepishly.

"whatever" i turned on my heels but fingers circled around my wrists. i knew who it was. i could never forget.

"what do you want now?" 

"talk?" joshua said in a sincere tone. "catch up?"

"no thanks" i turned but he gripped my wrist again. he is provoking me now. 

"what's your problem?"

"we need to clear things arin. you guys are acting like you all hate each other"

"acting? i hate you joshua" 

the smile wiped off his face. i could tell he was so hurt. 

"in fact you are the only one i hate. i would rather kiss that bug than talk to you." 

i knew it was harsh. but he deserved it. 

joshua gulped, the hurt evident in his eyes as he stared at me in disbelief. "you can hate me."

i was taken aback but i pretended like i didn't care.

"i deserve it all. but please, don't let everything end in misunderstandings. just talk it out. please." he was desperate and he wasn't letting go of my hand.

"hyung let go of her" dk interrupted. "don't do this. think about our team."

joshua sighed and let go of my wrist. 

"don't touch me again." i snapped before leaving for real this time.

:o Cookie : her breakup with jeonghan was a lot more messier than arin knows and it affected a lot more people than just arin and jeonghan.